Day 85

I'm not sure what's happened to me the past couple of days. I've been off work since Friday and for some reason I always found weekends/days off work more difficult.

However, the past couple of days it has suddenly hit me that I am so happy I am not smoking any more. I hadn't realised how fed up smoking was making me - worrying about what I was doing to my health, my money, my smelly clothes and always having to plan my life around when I could have my next cigarette. I'm not even having any of those "one won't hurt" thoughts which have been my downfall before. I used to tell people I liked smoking and I'm now beginning to realise that was my addiction talking not me.

I have no idea what's happened. This time last week part of me was wishing I could go outside with the smokers at a work Christmas do. The thought of never smoking again used to be a dream, I'm now starting to believe I might just be able to do this. There will probably still be challenging days ahead but I just thought I'd share this as I'm usually here complaining about how difficult quitting is.

I'd like to wish you all a very happy Christmas and say thank you for the support and encouragement so far.

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  • Sounds like you are on to something to here Sally. I feel a bit the same but too scared to say or believe it. Lets hope so and merry Christmas and here's to a smoke free 2015

  • Brilliant post Sally. You always speak from the heart which makes anyone following your posts able to see how possible this really is. I for one like to see both the good and bad threads as you can relate so much to it and feel you aren't alone in this journey. It IS hard but I do believe we all will look back and be so super proud of ourselves. Merry Xmas xxx

  • Sally, it sounds to me as though you really have turned the corner. I'm a firm believer in there being a 'switch' in our brains and that once it flicks over, everything changes. I think that's exactly what has happened to you. That isn't to say there won't be 'moments' but you'll know, when you encounter them, that smoking is just not an option any longer. :D

    Many congratulations from me and may your Christmas be a wonderful one. :)

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