here I am again back at day 1!!
I was smoke free for approx. 70 days (I stopped counting but was thereabouts) and I cant even tell you what happened. I was out and for some reason I smoked then another and so on, finished the pack I bought and then bought another the following morning with the reasoning that id already ruined it...you know how it works. shocked at how quickly I got sucked back in.
anyhoo.. I have been smoking again for a full week and yep that's me straight back up to 20 a day. Ive spent the last week kicking myself for throwing away my quit. so after a full week of feeling sorry for myself, being mad, being disappointed and feeling like ive let everyone down including myself here I am.
at 2pm today I got a grip and decided that enough is enough. my last quit fail is in the past, that's done with. This WILL be my last quit. I don't like smoking, I don't want to smoke so I wont im scared a little because although I feel this will be it im very much aware now that no matter what stage you are your quit is still fragile. I need to work on that and not forget that I need to take care of it always.
Ill keep soldiering on until my quit sticks... going cold tukey this time and I will use this site religiously!(didn't use it as much last time due to being away during the summer hols) along with my copious amounts of soft mints and haribo of course