Really wanted to smoke this past week which has completely come out of the blue! Think that it could be my new job, which is stressful, tiring and a trigger because in my old job I had ciggie breaks all the time. Every time I have a break now I think automatically that I will go and smoke and then remind myself that I am now a non-smoker.
I've been romanticising it I think. Life has really slowed down since I left uni and I am missing the student life of going out all the time, smoking and drinking. Being responsible is boring!
I keep reminding myself that smoking has nothing to do with fun and I really don't think I will smoke, it is just shocking to me that I am thinking about it all the time when the past two months have been super easy.
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Kirstie, I felt really lost for a while after Uni. It was hard to get into the routine of working full time and everything seemed flat and wrong sonehow. It does take time before everything falls into place but it does eventually and it will for you too. You're going through a transitional period at the moment and it is no wonder that you're missing a former 'prop'. You're wise to it though and that's the main thing.
I really hope the feelings pass very soon- I expect they will. In the meantime, hold on, stand firm and remind yourself as often as you can of how far you have come and how much you have to celebrate.