Can't believe I'm having such a sh.. Day nine weeks in. I've been crying on and of all day for no reason. Up until now it has not bothered me at all. Got told yesterday that my son is being posted to Germany (army) and that has really opened the floodgates. If I was still smoking today would have been a chain smoking day lol. I just really miss the kids living at home yet when they were younger I couldn't wait for them to grow up. No I know that having a cancer stick won't help so why do I feel as if a cigarette could make me happy right now? How messed up is the human brain ?