Woke up this morning convinced that i'd smoked last night. I've read other posts where people have dreamt that they'd lost a quit but as I never usually remember my dreams I thought I was pretty safe from this one but apparently not.
I was sat outside smoking and telling one of my mates to keep an eye out for my OH as he didn't know I was back smoking. She said something about being disappointed after doing so well and a huge wave of despair just hit me. I knew for a fact that I would never have the strength to do it again and the anger and sadness were horrendous.
I woke up with the 'bunged up feeling' from smokin that I'd totally forgotten about and it took a minute to realise that I'd been dreaming.
I'm thinking it's my subconcious helping me out. Allowing me to experience that 'curiosity one' and the reality without having to do it.
Scary, scary start to the day though.