Day 5 grrrrrrr!!!

[nsd_user663_57734]

Felt great today no probs. However, as the evening has gone on i am become more and more irritable. Everything is just making me want to scream & shout.

Im thinking about smoking (not having a cig) just i keep having thoughts of something to do with smoking. I think that little f***** nico demon is in my head tonight. Dont know where his popped up from but his there.

I'm sorting the kids for bed then i'm going straight to bed. Funny how out of nowhere an attack comes. Not a craving as such but a ****** mental argument with what your addiction wants and what you want.

Had to air that or im gonna lose it with the kiddddds!!!!!!! May have to check in later before bed. Hope everyone else is good. X

[AngryBear]

Well done, that's the first thing you should do......post on here. It does pass, I promise you, it does.....

[__steve__]

Kim,

I was EXACTLY the same on my first Friday night :eek:

Don't forget: relaxing times are sometimes the strongest triggers!

Get through tonight and tomorrow,and you'll have BEATEN it. I promise.

Stay cool, yeah?

[nsd_user663_54332]

Felt great today no probs. However, as the evening has gone on i am become more and more irritable. Everything is just making me want to scream & shout.

Im thinking about smoking (not having a cig) just i keep having thoughts of something to do with smoking. I think that little f***** nico demon is in my head tonight. Dont know where his popped up from but his there.

I'm sorting the kids for bed then i'm going straight to bed. Funny how out of nowhere an attack comes. Not a craving as such but a ****** mental argument with what your addiction wants and what you want.

Had to air that or im gonna lose it with the kiddddds!!!!!!! May have to check in later before bed. Hope everyone else is good. X

Those sneak attacks are b.loody annoying, but you have got 2 fab plans there. 1 like AngryBear said is posting on here, it does help and 2 is going to bed - some days early on your only choise is to say stuff it and go to sleep. Annoying but there it goes.

Well done for hanging in there, it'll be better tomorrow x

[nsd_user663_57734]

Im frigging doing my own head in atm. I'm actually arguing with myself that i want to smoke. I dont want to ****** smoke. Ffs. I'm gona cry i think.

Maybe it is because its friday. Every minuet noise is making my blood boil?? Arghhhhhh. Hot bath, cry & bed. X

[nsd_user663_54332]

Im frigging doing my own head in atm. I'm actually arguing with myself that i want to smoke. I dont want to ****** smoke. Ffs. I'm gona cry i think.

Maybe it is because its friday. Every minuet noise is making my blood boil?? Arghhhhhh. Hot bath, cry & bed. X

Hun, we've all been there, it's hell but you will get through it and you'll feel brilliant for getting there!!

Cry, scream, shout anything that gets you through

[nsd_user663_2681]

Im frigging doing my own head in atm. I'm actually arguing with myself that i want to smoke. I dont want to ****** smoke. Ffs. I'm gona cry i think.

Maybe it is because its friday. Every minuet noise is making my blood boil?? Arghhhhhh. Hot bath, cry & bed. X

Defo been there Lady, agree with Deb, best place for you is bed when ur in that sort of mood, it's like one long permanent crave and when it's got to the point that you want to cry where you are so irritable the best thing to do is sleep it off... I totally get where u are coming from, had that in past quits....Tomorrow you will feel better I'm sure chin up dude xxx

[__steve__]

Im frigging doing my own head in atm. I'm actually arguing with myself that i want to smoke. I dont want to ****** smoke. Ffs. I'm gona cry i think.

Maybe it is because its friday. Every minuet noise is making my blood boil?? Arghhhhhh. Hot bath, cry & bed. X

Cry then! Crying's GOOD. Floods the brain with endorphins.

You're getting stronger every second you resist. Tomorrow morning you'll feel SO PROUD of yourself. You'll be laughing, not crying.

C'mon!

[nsd_user663_57734]

Ive had a bath, done bit of ironing. Eldest is still up so i wont be going to bed just yet. Thanks everyone for your support. Just some thoughts i need to release;

Im happy being a non smoker.

My hse smells fresh.

My clothes, my hair, my breath all smell lovely.

My heart is not racing.

My fingers dont smell.

My purse is not so light.

I dont have to rush off every half hr for a fag.

I can get my body in shape, just how ive always wanted too.

My health is improving everyday i dont smoke.

My kids aren't around smoking

Thats why i stopped smoking. Thats why i dont want to be a smoker. Them things are what i wont have if i smoke. I HATE smoking. Its a nasty, life taking, dirty, disgusting, stupid, poxy, stinky, crap, horrible, dumb, blooming damn right ugly habit that i wish i never ever ever ever started.

Sorry have to let it out.😁😁😁😁😁😁😁

[nsd_user663_54332]

Ive had a bath, done bit of ironing. Eldest is still up so i wont be going to bed just yet. Thanks everyone for your support. Just some thoughts i need to release;

Im happy being a non smoker.

My hse smells fresh.

My clothes, my hair, my breath all smell lovely.

My heart is not racing.

My fingers dont smell.

My purse is not so light.

I dont have to rush off every half hr for a fag.

I can get my body in shape, just how ive always wanted too.

My health is improving everyday i dont smoke.

My kids aren't around smoking

Thats why i stopped smoking. Thats why i dont want to be a smoker. Them things are what i wont have if i smoke. I HATE smoking. Its a nasty, life taking, dirty, disgusting, stupid, poxy, stinky, crap, horrible, dumb, blooming damn right ugly habit that i wish i never ever ever ever started.

Sorry have to let it out.😁😁😁😁😁😁😁

So let it out, it will do you good

Keep thinking of those reasons you have freed yourself - it will help, and grit your teeth!!

It's foul, just foul going through this but tomorrow you will feel heaps better - I know how it feels, most of us do - last time i stopped I'd have full scale rows with myself but you *can* get through and you'll be so proud for doing it!!

Have you got any post it notes? Pretend smoke one of them - sounds insane but the smoking action *really* calms your craves, else make a fake ciggie and use that. When I feel like caving it saves me - or use a strraw, lolly, anything. It's the familiar action your brain craves and that soothes it!!

[nsd_user663_57734]

Good Morning

Well on waking after such a bad sleep, i have realised and remembered how my addiction can come out and BAM!!! Bite me.

I knew i wasn't going to smoke last night, there was no temptation to buy cigs (well i cant at night anyway coz im with kids by myself) its was just my mind arguing with me that i didn't want to stop smoking. Stupid but its a part of my quit i suppose.

Well today is a new day (no.6) i make a pledge to not smoke today. Thanks to everyone for your support. Have a fantabulous day! Xxx

P.s gemma i cant do what you said with making a pretend cig coz it just puts smoking in my head more & thats the whole habit i want to avoid, hand to mouth motion. Thats why im going CT too as i believe for me its the only way. I totally understand others coping measurements. Thanks Gem x

[nsd_user663_54332]

P.s gemma i cant do what you said with making a pretend cig coz it just puts smoking in my head more & thats the whole habit i want to avoid, hand to mouth motion. Thats why im going CT too as i believe for me its the only way. I totally understand others coping measurements. Thanks Gem x

Ooooh I understand that - it's all different things for different people!!

Really glad you got through and you're better today hun!!