What's your trigger?

MASSIVE cravings last night. I don't get out as much since my daughter was born, but last night my girl and I went to see a concert (MGMT if anyone cares or is interested), started drinking straight away and probably got a little to deep into it. Sure enough the cravings come WHAM! right in my face. If that wasn't bad enough, I let my girlfriend smoke in my car which drove me up the wall. I regret it now because my car still smelled like smoke this morning, but that's beside the point. I remember back in the day I used to go to shows all the time in crowded rooms with little to no ventilation. The smoke hanging like thick clouds around our heads, which for some reason, only increased our desire to smoke more. Proceed to smoke about a half pack in just a few hours and come out a little stumbly, smelling worse than a bonfire, and just the right amount of B.O.

Lol, those were the worst, it really didn't matter if you were a smoker or not, everyone left the same way. I don't know why but that was probably my biggest trigger yet. I'm glad it's over. You know, if I hadn't been this far in my quit already, I don't think I would have made it through the night without smoking. It was still a blast though.

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  • Sugary doughnuts - I had one at 11am today and by 11.40 I could have killed for a cig, luckily the feeling went away in about 3 minutes but boy it was strong :) I hardly ever eat them and I had a massive craving the last time too, I don't know whether the sugar rush has anything to do with it ?

  • Sun and balcony for me too. I had a trigger in October I was staying in a hotel in Eastbourne. I had a room with a sea view and a balcony with a little patio table and chairs. I will admit that it made me have a trigger:(

  • I'm going to have to disagree with you on this one Max. A person who never smoked would never think to have a cigarette at any occasion, just as I have never tried heroine so there would never be a time I would think about doing it. Unfortunately as a former smoker, I will from time to time be compelled to smoke. I have come to accept that this is part of my quit and it is my responsibility not to smoke when encountering these feelings.

    I don't remember smoking during those times as 'good' smokes. The memory of smoking I described doesn't sound appealing to me at all, it sounds disgusting. Smoking inundated every aspect of my life, good times and bad. The craving came on surprisingly strong and smacked me across the head when I wasn't looking. Next time I'll know it's coming and it won't be so bad. There is a reason they tell newly quit smokers to avoid things like coffee and alcohol as a general rule, because they are so often paired together with smoking.

    Nobody said it was going to be easy.

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