This is taking forever!

Man, it feels like it will be so loooong until I reach the penthouse. I feel like this is taking forever to move along. Well I smoked for over 10 years so I guess this isn't so long, and I'll just have to wait my turn.

On another thought, my girlfriend asked me to go out and get her cigarettes the other night, and I had to tell her I can't do that or I'd probably end up smoking again. Now, I highly doubt that I would go to the store and pick up a packet for her then smoke one out of there, but at the same time I don't want to enable her. And I certainly don't want to awaken some latent desire to smoke or trigger some routine that puts me off track. Most of all, I have removed that part of my life, the part about having to go to the store to get cigarettes, and I don't want to go back to it in any form. I feel like I am being overly sensitive about this, but I just can't go back to smoking, no matter what.

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  • Good point Max! Well said on both.

    Debbie - This still feels pretty surreal, like being a non-smoker in a smoker's body. It really has been a long time already for me at this point, and I'm really happy with my progress, but it just feels like I'm counting the days still for some reason. Maybe it's because I'm at work and it just seems to drag sometimes ;)

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