Hi everyone....all you lovely sweet smelling people..
Got a bit of free time here so thought Id share some thoughts.
Looking forward to my next milestone - 7 months -
To be honest it feels a little surreal....Me - a non smoker ! But yes and proud member of N O P E !
Anyway, still on this road to a place they call the "Penthouse" ....keep seeing signs for it and at one point thought I'd missed the turning, but thank God for the satnav ! It's funny because the traffic in the opposite direction seems quite busy...and leads me to think of the poor souls who have lost their way heading back to the beginning they all must be driving too fast because I can't even see their cars but for puffs of smoke !?!
I dreamt early this morning...you know when you awake in early hours for a p then jump back into bed straight into a dream. In my dream was a packet of ten and a faceless person saying " go on then you can have one " .....
My sub consciousness thinking I don't smoke...then I woke up !
Sometimes, even now I panic and think I can smell smoke on me???sure I can..but it's just my imagination.
Which leads me to that Penthouse again...trying to conjure up the most beautiful place on earth I'd like to be. I am hoping it's by the sea, because I adore the sea. I imagine walls of white and walls covered in ivy and the sweetest smelling roses. Very large windows looking out onto a small harbour where I can just see the boat masts gently bobbing up and down and a few seagulls screeching.
Out in the yard is a small table set for one and a large silver bucket with a bottle covered in a crisp white linen cloth. Surrounded by pretty clay pots all filled with the most vibrant colours. I can hear a dog barking and a lady along the shore, both without a care in the world.....
NOW WHY ON EARTH WOULD I want turn back on this road when I am over half way there........
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