I've always said by 29 I would quit... funny how relaxed I seemed about that long time ago. I've been smoking since 18 and 10 years is more than enough and I find myself saying... why did I start in the first place?
I grew up around smokers.. it appealed to me what the fuss was about. I can recall trying my first cigarette when I was 12... 12!!!
I didn't start getting a bit 'scared' till my father had major heart attack (from smoking) but it didn't even stop me. I started thinking... so many in my family have heart heart problems - all smokers. My grandmother died at 41, my aunty had her first heart attack at 32, my dad at 49, my uncles had 2 with quadriple bypass. When I sit here and think about this seriously rather than say to myself 'few more wont hurt' I am pretty angry at myself. I witnessed the pain they went through why would I let myself get to that stage.
I have attempted several times but this time I am 100% determined to give it up and I know the first couple of weeks will be the worst.. but I have to say, I am feeling fantastic about it now.
Sometimes smokers say things like "well you're going to die of something anyway" and now I am sitting here thinking REALLY? I actually justified smoking like that?
I do not want to be a heart attack patient and cop the lectures about smoking and what a fool I've been. I dont want to feel trapped and held hostage to nicotine, I dont want to smell of it anymore, I don't want to rely on getting through the days with it. Enough is enough!
So good luck everyone