I'm sorry for just jumping in without any introductions or previous posts. I've basically been lurking for a while, trying to figure out if I think a forum would be helpful...I've quit seriously twice before for 3 months, but now I've been smoking for almost 10 years, I'm getting really anxious to quit for good.
I'm in my mid 20s and I think that if I quit now I can pull things back on track but I'm having such a hard time doing it. I'm going to Scotland at the weekend and I've always found that I find quitting easiest when I'm away from the every day routine & habit of day-to-day life. With that in mind, my quit date is tomorrow. I want to get the first couple of days out of the way and then enjoy walking in the highlands knowing that I'm not smoking, not feeling like whatever I do, however healthy I feel walking in the hills, is meaningless because I'm still smoking.
I feel like there's something wrong with me sometimes - when I try to quit, I almost immediately feel great. I look forward to not smoking and I don't suffer with irritability or headaches or anything like that. My problem isn't really even "cravings" as such. It doesn't matter how far through my quit I am or how good I'm feeling, I get an urge to smoke - literally, a fleeting thought - and I act on it. I can't seem to wait it out or try and embrace it - I just smoke. And it is a massive barrier for me.
I would really welcome any help or tips or encouragement...I'm at a bit of a loss and starting to feel quite desperate about the whole thing. I hope you can also forgive my lack of forum etiquette as well - I'm just feeling a bit lost.
Thank you in advance. And sorry for the essay!