Well I never thought I'd reach this far, especially after the stress of the past few days. There were times when I almost picked up a ciggy but I realised It wouldn't change things and any relief I'd have got from a ciggy would last maybe 5minutes tops and then I would be hooked once again. So I did it albeit by the skin of my teeth.
As I said in my last post my wife has started smoking again albeit only 3 a day. I can't blame her as she is confined to a wheelchair and is severely disabled so her life is restricted to sitting immobile in that damn chair. If I were in her position God knows how I would handle It , smoking would probably be the tip of a self destructive iceberg.
Strangely although I now smell the smoke and watch her puffing on the weed it doesn't bother me, as I don't have the desire to smoke the darned things, so maybe in a strange way it has helped me.
So hats of to all of you you've got me through this far. Hope you are all well .love Jonno.