Day 90 - Realising how smoking rules your life

Hi all, just wanted to check in and say hello. I've been coming on here less and less, and to be honest feel pretty strong in my quit now and dont really feel the need to check in each day / week. But I havent forgotten about you all.

Survived Easter weekend away in Dublin, where the three people I was with were all smokers. As you can imagine there was a number of trips to pubs and lots of Guinness, but even though they lept up to go outside every fifteen minutes, I felt happy and content in my decision. If anything the whole trip, which marked three months of my quit, just taught me how much smokers' lives are governed by when they can smoke: "I have to have one before the plane", "I have to have one before we go in this museum", "Im going to leave this nice warm pub to stand in the freezing cold" or "I'm leaving this gig/tour/museum now because I need to have a fag." In all honestly it frustrated me as to how pathetic it all was. They continually missed out on things or couldn't enjoy "the moment" because they were all always thinking about when to have their next fag.

Anyway it made me realise more than ever what a hold that crap used to have on me. The fact that only three months ago I would have been there with them only serves to make me feel even stronger.

I look back on those dark January days now the sun is shining and I feel everything is clear. I'm never going back there. To everyone on here in the early days of their quit I urge you to keep going. It is sooooo hard at the beginning but worth every step when you get to a place like I feel today. Freedom!

Anyway, I still have a long way to go, but I will be in the Pent House. And I hope to see all of you there with me.

Love n light to all, stay strong

Han

XxxX

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  • Great to hear all still going well for you Han.. glad you had a fab time in Dublin and have now escaped from the smoking hell.

    stay strong and check back in again when you can

    Donna x

  • Well done Han, I'm glad you're free and not still hankering after a smoke. It'sfab you've realised how much it rules your life - which it does to a scary extent.

    You don't really realise it at the time but everything is governed by the next fag which like you say is pathetic.

    Here's to the next 3 months :D

  • To everyone on here in the early days of their quit I urge you to keep going. It is sooooo hard at the beginning but worth every step when you get to a place like I feel today. Freedom!

    This statement really stikes a cord with me. It's SO TRUE!!!!

  • Hi all, just wanted to check in and say hello. I've been coming on here less and less, and to be honest feel pretty strong in my quit now and dont really feel the need to check in each day / week. But I havent forgotten about you all.

    Survived Easter weekend away in Dublin, where the three people I was with were all smokers. As you can imagine there was a number of trips to pubs and lots of Guinness, but even though they lept up to go outside every fifteen minutes, I felt happy and content in my decision. If anything the whole trip, which marked three months of my quit, just taught me how much smokers' lives are governed by when they can smoke: "I have to have one before the plane", "I have to have one before we go in this museum", "Im going to leave this nice warm pub to stand in the freezing cold" or "I'm leaving this gig/tour/museum now because I need to have a fag." In all honestly it frustrated me as to how pathetic it all was. They continually missed out on things or couldn't enjoy "the moment" because they were all always thinking about when to have their next fag.

    Anyway it made me realise more than ever what a hold that crap used to have on me. The fact that only three months ago I would have been there with them only serves to make me feel even stronger.

    I look back on those dark January days now the sun is shining and I feel everything is clear. I'm never going back there. To everyone on here in the early days of their quit I urge you to keep going. It is sooooo hard at the beginning but worth every step when you get to a place like I feel today. Freedom!

    Anyway, I still have a long way to go, but I will be in the Pent House. And I hope to see all of you there with me.

    Love n light to all, stay strong

    Han

    XxxX

    Thanks Han :) This really means a lot.

    I know I'm not the only one who's been having a tough time lately, and posts like these are appreciated so much.

    Well done! x

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