So - I've decided its time after a couple of smaller posts to throw myself out there - I'm now on Day 15 - so this must be some sort of serious quit.
I've had moments - I've even went to the shop - bought a ten pack, got home, placed one to my mouth and then had a very severe word with myself and put water on them. I mean - what was I thinking - all my hard work could have been undone! :eek:
Truthfully, the above both delights and scares me - delights because i pulled through without lighting up even when I was so close; scared because it shows how quickly I could break this quit.
The thing that is getting me the most is the "just one" thoughts - they are constantly there - and I mean constantly - its like having a split personality - am i hearing voices in my head - too right I am! :eek: Its almost like I am trying to justify having a cig - things like "you quit on a whim and didn't really enjoy your last cig - so have just one final one now and that will be it". BUT I know that will not be it - it will lead to another and another and well, you guessed it, another.
I really want the mental war to be over but I think thats a way off yet - I have won the week long "Battle of the Physical" - now I need to place the long game, the attirional "Battle of the Mind". Any tips people?
Thanks for reading what must seem like the ramblings of a mad man!