Don't be so hard on your self. You smoked, now ur a quitter. Should be patting ur self on the back not say sorry to everybody. U quit when u are ready to quit not when family friends etc. are making you quit. If you quit for somebody else then it's not your quit. It's theirs.
So stop saying sorry, it's not like you have ruined anyone's life from smoking. Apart from our own Heath
Lots of great reasons to stay quit and most of us are guilty of all of them.
I had a very bad day yesterday and it was the first time I almost gave in after almost 4 months without a single waver. I kept reading a birthday card from my grandchildren saying how much they missed me. If I went back to smoking they could miss me forever. Not a pleasant thought.
Of course it's fruitless to beat ourselves up about the past. But on the other hand I think what you've done here is very healthy: looking at what you were as a smoker, what awful things the habit made you do, what it cost you, is like a goodbye letter to your cigarettes. You are recognising these things so you can put them behind you. And if you ever feel tempted, it's there in black and white. Worth going back to all that for the sake of quieting down a crave? I don't think so!!
Excellent post. Believe me all of us regret and feel ashamed for things we've done in the past to have a cigarette rather than do something else.
Good that you've recognised it. Now, listen. Do not beat yourself up over it. You cannot change the past what you can do is change the future. Make sure in a few months, years time you are not looking back and still regretting it and saying 'sorry' when you can now change it all and more than make up for the things you regret.
Well done, you are well on the way to understanding how to beat this nicotine additiction. Believe me, you will.
Haze, Jos, Shelly,Una, Hesbelles, Cyprien and York
Thank you all so much for your kind words. 4 weeks yesterday since I stopped and I'm feeling fine, fatter but fine!
This quit feels so different, I'm feeling so much more postive then every before. I think it may be the fact that I'm a Mama now, I have 2 beautiful grandsons
I remember writing similar apologies early in my quit, it got me in touch with the realization of how much this addiction drew me away from important things like giving attention to my partner rather than having a cigarette. i always put cigarettes first, left people sat at the table while i went out to smoke. sometimes all the way through the meal i'd be gulping my food so i could finish it and have a cigarette. so many unfinished conversations and lost golden moments. Nowadays im fully present with people and am en-riched by it and richer of course and more pleasant to be around. so well done to you Nutmeg.
Just posted something on another thread which reminded me of a post I did early on in my quit. At that time my grandsons were very young, I never did smoke in front of them, but did choose to leave them (lots) to do so!!!!
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