Ok well I brought my last packet about a hour and a half ago (10 Lambert and Butler). There are so many reasons why I want to quit. I hate the fact that I can't just stop, It's taken over my life. The price of cigarettes now have gone up so much... my usual brand lamber and buter is now in most shops around £7.20 for a 20 pack. It always depresses me when I hand over £10 and I only get back £1 something as I usually buy a drink with it.
I find work unbearable some days. I'm always sneaking of for a sneaky few drags... I usually only inhale about 3 deep breathes because I'm worried Ill get caught. Then when it gets to break time I chain smoke because I know I can't have 1 for another couple of hours and in that time all I can think about is the next light up.
The money is depressing for me as I spend so much onit but its not the main reason, It's just the whole lifestyle of being a smoker which depresses me just not being able to concentrate ever or be relaxed. Watching films is always a nightmare for me because I have to pause them and go outside for a cigarette. I know I'm such a junkie which is horrible to admit.
I'm so young aswell to be like this, I know that If I carried on smoking I would become a chain smoker for sure.
My main hate is that I cannot stand the smell on my clothes or on my fingers. Most of all I want my mind back 100% and be able to function again.