What a year....Long post! haha get your brews ready & your reading glasses to hand..
Was looking round the forum, as i often do! Im perhaps a stranger to a lot members nowadays! but i still like reading all about peoples experiences good or bad, thoughts, ideas and moans! haha Part of me is very much still quite dependant on knowing others are going through just about the same,
I was going to mark my 6months milestone time and i thought you know what I have attempted to quit numerous times! and this is the 2nd time I have ever reached such a place in time. So i held this as an achievement & i left this milestone in a quiet place.
Almost 9 months into my quit a big turning point for me in my feelings towards smoking........not got quite as involved with forum on this occasion. Maybe it was my answer, coz lets face it, its the furthest i have come, or perhaps it was complete coincidence that i was just in a much better place to ignore the temptations this time round, i was completely determined...I know People move on, places change, routines alter, the people you meet in this forum may vanish, they may become lifelong friends, taper off, become your allie's or just get back into their own life without smoking to be never heard from again, ...It is lovely to have people beside you doing the same, feeling the same, going through the same! but rub it all away and you are quite alone! no one can do it for you, encouragement, advice, kind words! but its simply just down to yourself.
However the people who grew up with me on the forum if thats the right wording haha!... know who they are, and I cant thank them enough for always being there, Whatever the weather. If it was a real celebration the drinks would most certainly be on me! Cheers everyone!
This time, i had it up to here with smoking & quitting...... my packet of patches did a job and had 3 left after yet another fail in aug/sept 2011 as alway i got back into it...used 2 patches for 2 days & kept the 3rd one in the box...for some reason (not sure why lol) so because i had stock piled the inhalators on the nhs programme i used them for occasional nights out! and sold the rest on ebay! (shh) was quite soon not using them anymore, which kind of happened after 6 months i think, dont actually remember counting because i only used them if i went boozing. That was my final kick of the habit, in my mind.
.... I feel in a Good place now, its not been easy, i too have had a couple of major stresses to deal with and almost folded....but the good feelings ive got now smash it all out! I cant honestly believe I am here today! and if I can come so far! its took me over 5 years to get , but its all been worth it!
1 year is here! i can honestly say ive deserved this!
So anyone who is struggling, or are contemplating smoking again......only you can control what you do! Always remember it is a simple choice you buy some or you dont! eventually over time that choice becomes easier to make, until it just becomes normal, and the choice isnt there anymore! you just dont bother!
I havent got the best willpower in the world, but i always go by the words "where there is a will there is a way"...it might take a while, and you might get lost, or take the scenic route to the penthouse (as a good friend said once heehee) ....But by god it is true that if you set yourself on doing something, then it can be done! be strong, brave, cry a little, smile, laugh, be an emotional wreck, put a bit of weight on, eat more, so what! ,be a bit nangy early days! shout, scream! play facebook games till your legs go numb with sitting too long lol ... But eventually it will all make perfect sense! All these distractions you have created gradually become less, and you will slip back into your exactly the same life except your not smoking anymore! easy!
"excuse me why i kiss the sky"
Round of applause please