Wanted to post last night after my first day as a non-smoker but couldn't, my lovely son and his girlfriend kept me company - guess they thought I'd be feeling bad but I was actually pretty good, and still am! Think I'm on a wee bit of a high at the moment because I've actually gone and done it! And guess what? The world didn't end, and I wasn't desperately ill or suicidal, or anything else that I expected to be without the dreaded weed!
I've had so many ill-fated attempts at stopping before where I always wakened up on day one feeling like a huge part of my life was missing? Well, not quite sure what the difference is this time, but I certainly feel different. I've tried to rationalize it but haven't quite worked it out yet - maybe I should just forget about that and go with the flow?
Ok, so this sounds a bit jumbled and I feel a bit daft to be honest, but it's hard to put how I'm feeling into words. First two days have been good - much better than I'd ever imagined - so I'm hanging onto that for now. I'm finally convinced though that after more than 30 years as a smoker I can do this and I will!
Not every days gonna be so good and I'll need support, but I will do it! Thanks so much to the lovely people who've been there right at the start - it really has helped