I'm sorry I don't normally do this but having a really bad time at the moment arhhhhhh!!!!
I'm reading posts from people who have quit earlier than me who are struggling or have failed. Why doesnt it get easier the longer you go on???
I've quit before for a bit less time than this one has lasted, but the same thing is happening, I start to play mind games with myself. I know it's the addiction but it doesn't help!!!
I could happily kill my OH right now. He's just come back from the local saying he's left his cigs and lighter behind! Ye right, I dont think so, he can't go 10 mins without one- but it hasn't stopped me looking for them:eek:
A thread earlier in the week asked if being a non smoker has changed you?
I would say yes, I was much more sociable as a smoker. I now feel I am avoiding going out at all now. I think I have become a right misery.
Mind you, saying that, my youngest son, aged 18, past his driving test in March,has been involved in an accident 3 hours ago! It wasn't his fault and the other driver has been arrested for drink driving! But you know what I was really calm and did not think of reaching for a cigarette. Well not then anyway!
Good night all and thanks for listening, I'm going to bed because I'm so fed up but will not smoke today or tomorrow.
PS have the worst sore throat ever
Rant over think we all deserve an olympic medal for our achevievment and effort