That was the week that was

Well I completed my third week literally hanging on by my fingernails it was really so, so bad :(. What with anger, and depression that was so bad I felt frightened I was very close to caving in there. And on Friday night (I think) I had just about made the decision to smoke again and I really don't know what stopped me. I think it was the thought of the frustration of yet another failed quit on my hands, the memory of just how awful fags tasted last time I smoked, and the memory of how good I felt the first time I got into week 4 of a quit, and I so wanted to get back there again, so I didn't smoke, phew :D.

So now here I am in week 4 woot woot :D and feeling loads better thank goodness, but guess what?? No Week 4 room to go to eek!! Been twiddling my thumbs a bit but guess I'll just hang out and do a bit of busking in the corridor, do some graffiti on the walls, and stick my foot out to trip up the mods when they walk past (sorry mods). Oh, and drink vodka of course, cos where is it written that I can get 'done' for being drunk in charge of a quit?? It isn't muahahahaha :p See you all in the Month 1 room next week, a bit hungover and a bit fatter, but smokefree, I hope, lol!!

Zoe xx

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  • Well done to you Zoe.

    I have complete sympathy of keeping quit when depressed. This weekend has been awfull as far as that goes and struggling to kick myself up the arse today. Briefly thought about smoking this morning :(

    Been through this to many times to have to do it again so will have to just get over myself lol.

    Gaynor x

  • Been through this to many times to have to do it again so will have to just get over myself lol.

    Same here Gaynor, I would scream if I had to start all over again lol :eek:. Depression is a terrible thing though, but I hope we both feel good again soon ;). They say chocolate lifts the mood, well, thats my excuse and I'm sticking to it :D xx

  • If it helps Zoe go for it!!

    I think I may hear some fruit & nut calling me from the shop :eek:

    Gaynor x

  • Yay Zoe, so happy for you :) 4 weeks is soooo good & I know what you mean about depression & quitting - that's what's made me cave the last few times but like you i'm not going to give in this time cos I know it just makes me feel worse...

    So proud of you, you deserve a double vodka with a cherry on top :D

    Denise x

  • ...So now here I am in week 4 woot woot :D and feeling loads better thank goodness, but guess what?? No Week 4 room to go to eek!! ...See you all in the Month 1 room next week, a bit hungover and a bit fatter, but smokefree, I hope, lol!!Zoe xx

    Well done Zoe, but you should be posting in the Month 1 room already because Week 4 is the last week of your 1st Month! :D

    When you get to the date you quit, you'll be ready to move into the Month 2 room. I'm guessing that will be around 27th or 28th June.

    Keep it up and keep caaaaaaalm! :D :cool:

  • Well Done Zoe! :D

    I see what Capitan means about Month 1, but it's just taken an academic explicitly pointing it out to realise! :o

    I've seen a few people say 'I'm moving into Week 4, but there's no room for me'. Now it's all so clear ... Thanks Capitan! ;)

    Off you go to Month 1 - for a week - then you can upgrade to Month 2!

    Good luck, onwards and upwards. :D

    Shazza x

  • Thanks Denise, Capitan and Shazza :D,

    Capitan, you mean I can go to month 1 right now woot woot :eek:

    That would be good cos being without a room is not fun. Feel like Audrey Hepburn in My Fair Lady lol :mad: So off I go, but be warned, I am likely to start singing again, and my singing, erm, well, earplugs recommended and DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME :D

    Zoe xx

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