I've been reading this forum on and off since about september last year, but it took me until sat May 5th this year to finally join you all on this incredible journey. And wow! What a journey. My thanks to you all are long overdue. I've been clinging to this forum by my fingernails all week, avidly following your triumphs and words of encouragement. It has so helped to relax me and encourage me to believe I can actually do this.
Me. Me who smokes(ed) about 40 a day! Me who is now on day 6. Day 6? Me?! I'm practically jumping on desks and singing it at the world. I'm so elated and excited by it. Not least coz I already feel so much better. I can breathe. Big lovely deep breaths. Yesterday I was in danger of running Me running. Its mad. But I just have all this energy I cant seem to zip safely away. I'm excited. It is so far the single best thing I have ever done for myself in my entire life. And i'm only on day 6 which leaves hundreds of days for it to get better and better and better.
Day one and two are mad though aren't they? Very strange. I was floating about like some kind of drugged up thing. Instead of brains my head may as well have been full of mashed potato. People would ask me quite simple things like 'would you like a cup of tea'........but my mash brains couldnt compute. They just thought eh? What is it that you're trying to say to me. And all the while this voice in my ear constantly.....gis a fag....have a fag...a fag would be nice.....why dont you light up......coffeee......coffee and a fag....give me a fag...i want a fag. Like I said. Day one and two are mad. By the end of day two I was exhausted. Absolutely worn out with it....but you know.....in a weird way i quite enjoyed it all. Despite the dificulties of day one and two...there was also something quite hilarious about it all. Since then its all been amazingly manageable apart from the constant eating. Crisps biscuits, more crisps, more biscuits ad infinitum. Ah well. I'll address that problem later.
Suppose I ought to mention that i'm just cold turkeying it. Bought myself a book called how to stop smoking and stay stopped for good by Gillian somebody or other (I forget her surname and have now lent the book out) shame on me for forgetting her surname as it really was an excellent book. For me anyway. Read it cover to cover in one night and hey presto. I stopped. Tried the alan carr one years ago. Nothing. Just didnt do it for me.
Anyway sorry. I've rambled on and on. Its the excitement. Cant get enough of telling anybody and everybody that i've stopped smoking. But you lot on here are the important people. This forum has been a massive support for me....both whilst trying to psyche up to stop and whilst stopping. I just think its the loveliest thing that people who've been stopped a long time keep coming back here just to offer a leg up to us beginners. I hope i'll do the same.
Skipping off to bed now. (incidentally I sleep so much better now)
(and wake so much fresher)
warmest regards and thanks