I'm a failure

I've given in (hanging head in shame)

I don't know what happened me today, woke up in the worst form and been crying all morning! I just couldn't take it anymore and smoked :mad:

I'm soo disappointed in myself as I would have reached 2 weeks tonight at half 8! I feel now like I'm never going to beat this :(

And now I've ruined the support programme I signed up to ( not thàt it was much help anyway they just handed me patches and never even asked me how I was doing). I don't know what else to try!!! When my moods get me down I just don't have the willpower to fight!

I also feel bad on everyone on this forum who has helped me last the two weeks, so sorry I failed! :(

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  • Hi sweetheart. so sorry, but don't beat yourself up, we have all been there , me more times I care to remember.

    Always used patches etc, this time I have managed to do it cold turkey.

    So far this is the best quit ever, not craving like I was when on patches.

    Get back when you are ready hun. And like I said don't beat yourself up.

    Love Joan x

  • Mrs Mash,

    You didn't fail at all, you created an experience that will help you to be stronger in the future. You know that you can go for at least two weeks without smoking, so next time around you can match that and go even further.

    How about starting all over right away? I'm sure you can make it if you try.

    In any case, nobody is going to judge you for having smoked. Many many people have caved in during the early stages of their quit. The pressure is great and it doesn't take much to fold.

    What you need to do right now is tell yourself that you've done much better than a lot of people, and that you can do even better soon.

    Alex.

  • Awww I get that you're feeling a failure now, but don't hold that thought forever or you will just set yourself up for a fail when u try again. Smoking is a hard habit to crack, hell I've done 100 days and still I can get cravings and small urges from smelling cig smoke but I know I do not want to be a smoker so I refuse to give in. You will get the 'lightbulb' moment and you will succeed and kick the habit sometime in the future. Just believe in yourself x

  • Don't feel bad, you haven't failed anyone, when you are ready it will come. As the others have said you have gone this long, you will do it again and for longer! We are here for you! Xx

  • I've given in (hanging head in shame)

    I don't know what happened me today, woke up in the worst form and been crying all morning! I just couldn't take it anymore and smoked :mad:

    I'm soo disappointed in myself as I would have reached 2 weeks tonight at half 8! I feel now like I'm never going to beat this :(

    And now I've ruined the support programme I signed up to ( not thàt it was much help anyway they just handed me patches and never even asked me how I was doing). I don't know what else to try!!! When my moods get me down I just don't have the willpower to fight!

    I also feel bad on everyone on this forum who has helped me last the two weeks, so sorry I failed!

    Bummer...sorry for that, Mrs Mash.

    Crazy that the support programme is ruined...just because you've smoked. Anyone switched on would realise that if a person does blip/slip then surely that's exactly when they do need the greatest support...not rejection :mad:

    I guess 'moods' are the rocks you need to steer around. If they are a given in your life, as they are in so many of our lives, then you'll just need to negotiate around them. Mine seemed to flow from Hunger Anger Lonely Tired...and there's a 5th which should be added - Scared.

    Pick yourself up, dust yourself down....a smoke or 2 or 5 etc after a long quit does make us feel shit. But actually you aren't...you're just someone seeking to better your lot :cool:

  • Like the others have said we,ve ALL been there done that.some of us one more than one occasion in the past but you will get there.Just look on it as a learning curb and try to deal with it differently next time. When I'm feeling down I just picture the cigarette has a face and it's laughing at me,goading me to give it my life and freedom back. As soon as I picture that I don't want one because I cherish my life and freedom too much now. There's no way I'm handing them over to a stupid white stick that wants to kill me! I know this might sound stupid to some on the forum but it's about whatever works for YOU! You can and will ACHEIVE your dream of quitting just get back up and dust yourself down. We,re all here to help each other. Good luck! Xxxxxx

  • Thanks everyone for your kind words! I'm annoyed at myself but rather than dwell on it I'm going to put it down to lesson learnt and start afresh. Back to day 1 for me! I've downloaded Allen Carr's book onto my kindle so I'm going to read a wee chapter now before I go to sleep, wake up, stick on a patch and read some more! I'll get this right yet!!

    Thanks again for your support, this forum is great and next time I have a moment of weakness I'm coming here before going to the shop for ciggies!!

    Smoking didn't help my mood at all, infact I got into a worse one for ruining another quit attempt! I didn't enjoy even enjoy it! I'm going to remind myself that the next time I get the urge!

    Here we go again!!!!

  • No way have you failed!! having a cig in 2 weeks is brilliant! a lapse isnt a relapse, you havent ruined the fact that you are 2 weeks more used to not smoking. plus i think when using NRT having one cig hasnt ruined anything! as were still having nicotine anyways, cold turkey is different in that way.

    have you tried other thing than patch? i found the patch hell tbh, i only use quick mist spray and found it alot easier, but each to their own.

    ive had a bad weekend to. smoked a few cigs, but no where near as many as my habbit was before! yeah i had 3 today...still better than 20!

    but like you say, start again, and dont say day 1! your on day 15 with once lapse!

    im with you tommorw...its back to NO cigs a day and im on day 11... :rolleyes: xxxxx

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