It's been a while since I came in here, I hope everyone who was quit on my last visit has stayed quit.
Today is exactly a year quit for me, yes I'm delighted and feel much better but I'd be lying if I said the job was done.
I know each smoker/quitter is different and we all have different experiences but I reached the conclusion that for me the lure of smoking will always be there.
I've given up plenty of times before and some of those occasions have been for long periods so even after a year I know that I could slip - I have no intention of smoking again but every so often I get weak moments, I'm not convinced these will ever go away.
Those who were in here a year ago will remember that I struggled with place association, sadly this is a still a battle for me, as time goes by of course there are fewer and fewer places that I re-visit as a non-smoker compared to my last visit as a smoker but I still struggle with pubs I've not been to for a while or airports when I'm used to smoking a dozen in half an hour before going through security, thankfully these moments are short in time, maybe a few seconds rather than the full-on cravings that lasted hours in the early days.
I always thought that once I broke the habitual cig like after dinner, driving, when out drinking etc that it would be easy, it definitely becomes easier but the desire to smoke has never completely left me.
But the benefits are huge, no more wheezing, no more smelly breath/clothes, no more discarded cigarette ends outside my back door, no more wasting money !
Anyone on this journey of becoming a non-smoker I can only warn you all to beware, never let your guard down, you may think you're through the worst of it but a single weak moment can set you back months/years.
Stick with it and fight all the way, nothing is better than the feeling of being a non-smoker, but this is not an easy journey and unlike most journeys you will never know if you make the destination.
And if anyone does crack pick yourself up and go again, never give up giving up.
I wish you all well....