I was here about a year ago & repeatedly dived on & off the wagon. After a year of repeatedly hearing the dreaded C word, i've decided that enough is enough. Binned it a week ago & it's gone remarkably well so far.
I've stood with smokers, i've held cigarettes, i've been stressed out, i've had people crying on me, & not once have i been tempted. The taste of coffee has changed though, which is fairly annoying. I used to really enjoy it, but it tastes like shite now.
If a stranger came up to you in the street & said, "Hey! Give me £8 a day & i'll make you stink, age prematurely, feel like shit & die a painful early death" you'd tell them to f**k off, and possibly punch them repeatedly in the face. Yet that's what we do to ourselves.