Not so good

[bananaskin_]

I messed up and bought some tobacco in a state of distress.

That was yesterday.

This is 2 months down the line, it isn't a crisis. Tell me it isn't a crisis?

I've been clean 2 months +

[nsd_user663_42220]

You bought it, did you smoke it?

[nsd_user663_45836]

PUT IN THE BIN!

You know that you don't really want to and definitely don't need to. xxx

[nsd_user663_45231]

Please dont smoke it you dont need it....bin it or give it away dont keep it..xx

[nsd_user663_42220]

Don't bin it, sprinkle it in your garden soil and absolutely soak it.

Failing that, give it away.

I've seen people scavenge through bins looking for tobacco and dog ends when they have been desperate!

I hope you're ok as you haven't been online since you started this thread.

[bananaskin_]

Well, I call today a fail.

Short story is that I missed appt with nurse and didn't get partches.

Anyhow, thanks for the support but tomorrow is another day.

[nsd_user663_42220]

Have you smoked?

[nsd_user663_44633]

oops

I'm about to do the same, if you didn't smoke it then well done. Personally, right now, I plan to smoke. I might feel differently tomorrow but I doubt it. I am not big or clever. In fact I am downright stupid. I have done 7 weeks without a fag. I am pathetic.

[nsd_user663_42220]

Please don't smoke you two, PLEASE!

It really won't make things better. Have a bath, kick a lampost, brush your teeth, stuff yourself full of chocolate, ANYTHING but smoke!

[bananaskin_]

Yes,

I've smoked

[nsd_user663_44633]

and...

...did the earth move for you??? because it better bloody do for me tomorrow.... But, in all honesty, is the beginning of another smoking career, or have you stopped again already?

[nsd_user663_10532]

I can answer that, no the earth won't move. If anything you will feel deflated, you are giving the ciggie too much power. How can non smokers function without a ciggie? I know it's hard, I felt just like you 2 years ago and I caved. Guess what, the situations I had before I smoked that ciggie where still there when I had smoked 20. Please don't do it, you will regret it

[bananaskin_]

Nope it didn't move.

It was a bad move on my part in a state of stress.

I'm not losing sleep over it, it is just a blip.

[bananaskin_]

Shojam you are rigt, of course.

I'm not going back to smelling bad, having no singing voice, less dosh, more illnesses.

And it doesn't sit well with my Zen and yoga partner .

I guess I just wanted to put it out there as a form of confession so I can put it right in public.

I hope that make sense.

[bananaskin_]

Well, that was a3 day blip. Now I've been clean again for 16 days.

[nsd_user663_44157]

Well done on 16 days back to the land of the quit.

Good to hear you got straight back to the quit

[nsd_user663_40832]

Good effort to get back on wagon.

I have also done a bit of blipping and had nic whispering in my ear to have one more, smoke for a week and then quit again etc etc very powerful and we all know that would be that.

Im glad to be back on the staight and narrow, be it I have put a half a patch back on this week, just to make sure.

Someone put on my confession post to think of the amount of cigs not smoked, versus the blip ones - which is true, but still not a great feeling.

Def a day at a time thing, but it could be a whole lot worse

Do they have a naughty step in the Penthouse?

[nsd_user663_24115]

Eventually u will grow tired of blips. If u dont go into the boxing ring u wont get battered.

Mash x