Month 5 is done and dusted and it's onto month 6. At the end of the next month I will be seriously celebrating (well internally anyway). I've been feeling much more upbeat the last few weeks which is a major boost. I really thought I was gonna feel shitty forever!!!!! So really glad that I've got my mojo back!
Anyways, like I say I'm over the moon to have got this far and I've been trying to think of what I've done differently this time round to when I've tried and failed numerous times before. I definately had the same determination back then...I tried and failed miserably many times when I was pregnant with my son so the motivation was there too (yes I will never forgive myself for smoking whilst pregnant, albeit after drastically cutting down to only 3 a day).
So after racking my brains, I think a lot of this quits success is down to how I've reacted in the quit. In my previously doomed quits I got miserable, down, snappy, moody, tetchy, depressed, pretty much like a tantruming child at times and to be honest at times I've been like that during this quit too. So why do I not turn to the smokes this time round?
Well, instead of going down to the shops and buying some ciggies. I took a bit of advise from Obi Wan and "searched my feelings and known it to be true" that all I was doing was trying to provide a justification to smoke. And in all those failed quits I've given in and in my mind felt rightly justified to have done so. Ashamedly on my part, my poor OH got the blame many times too...when really it was down to my addict brain trying to provide a reason for me to smoke. What a saddo I was. I am only thankful that in this quit I've stopped and searched my own feelings before buying those ciggies, realised what the hell was going on and seen the pathetic, addict part of myself for what it was. A git that needs pointing out, ridiculing and kicked into France.
Anyways...here's to the next month and then it'll be a major landmark for me.....6 months and what a day that will be. I'll even bring cakes into work I think.
All the best everyone in their own quits.