Day 26...

[nsd_user663_4123]

Now onto day 26, although I have my first blip to report. It's such a positive blip though...

... I knew that a trigger would be being home alone and so it proved over the weekend with my other half down with her folks. Off I toddled down to the shop, unable seemingly to prevent myself from treading the well-trodden path.

Anyway, 2 cigs later (1 on the way home and 1 in the back garden) and I couldn't believe how turned off of it all I was. It did absolutely nothing for me, tasted foul, and I was stood out in the snow of my back garden, pitch black, wondering what the hell I was doing. So in the bin went the cigs and the lighter and since then they've been completely forgotten about.

This is the first time that I've lapsed in ANY quit where smoking again didn't feel desirable in any shape or form, so I take this as a big lesson... and believe me, for anyone reading this who is currently feeling like they're faltering, the concept of smoking is immeasurably better than the reality.

Hopefully you kind people will allow me to stay on day 26 instead of going back to day 1?!

[nsd_user663_42145]

me too... ugh

Hi there,

Yesterday was day 20 for me . I started my quit with patches and went cold turkey after a week.

Last night, my household told me I was intolerable and too much. I was so stressed and feeling like I could not keep myself together, I smoked a cigarette and was disgusted, it tasted so gross. I threw out the cigs and went right back to the store and bought lozenges and and e cig, for the moments when I need help. I feel sooooo mad at myself. I was on day 20, the nicotine was out of my system, damn! I really don't care if I have to go back to day 1 and neither should you, it's a journey, right?

[nsd_user663_40725]

Congrats you! I put smoking on a pedestal like its had rays of light beaming around of it. Then when you take that drag its a little dissappointing to say the least and really stinky. Who ever invented the habit? putting smoke in your mouth and then blowing it out. Why? :rolleyes:

Its your journey just keep going forwards, you have done so well

[nsd_user663_4123]

Certainly is, we're re-teaching ourselves after all, after years or teaching ourselves that smoking was us whilst "normal".

I went for the cigs only because I associated them to having a good time when left home alone, they made me "happy".

Er, no they didn't as it transpires. It was a lesson I would've preferred to have learned in theory rather than in practice but it's a lesson learned nonetheless... and in my mind it's a stumble rather than a fall.

Keep at it Jubilee, recognise your times of stress and replace with something else. I've just ticked off the only remaining hold that smoking had on me (oooh, whilst the cat's away, smoking is great!), but I've had to tick off quite a few on the way to that point.

[nsd_user663_4123]

Then when you take that drag its a little dissappointing to say the least and really stinky.

100 times this. It's the best thing to remember when faltering and now I have a great and real example to use in the future if I ever feel tempted ("remember that time when you really fancied a fag and it was really really crap?").

Thanks for the support surferchick, hope you're getting on well too...

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now I have a great and real example to use in the future if I ever feel tempted ("remember that time when you really fancied a fag and it was really really crap?").

yes... like a mouth full of ashes