Yesterday was day 4- what a disaster. Someone drove into the back of my car- I was due to be selling it next week. Bloody nightmare. had to call AA- exhaust not ok and scratched n I was v.shaken. Went home, back hurting. Masive row with boyfriend about a few things that have been there for a while....all I could think was just have a ciggy- it will make it easier! By some miracle I didn't smoke. Don't know who/how/what happened. I know my boyfriend had some in his coat pocket. I thought about whether 1 was going to make it any easier- was having a cigg going to mean that woman didn't hit my car? Was it going to mean that we didnt have a row? Was it going to make my situation any better? NO- in fact it would have made it worse, coz I would have woken up this morning feeling giulty for smoking.
So I didnt smoke.
And it is now day 5!!
Thnx Bec on this forum as well- u defo helped yesterday when I was deciding whether to smoke last night or now. Wow, would have felt so crappy this morning if I had!! :)