Shouldn't have been an excuse......

[nsd_user663_4625]

Hi Everyone,

Yes, I am back on day 1 again but at least I am back on it :rolleyes:

On the 18th December I had a phone call from my Mum in floods of tears as my stepdad was having a heart attack. At that point my world fell apart. Mum lives two hours away and apart from the paramedics had no one to be with her. They tried for half an hour but unfortunately there was nothing they could do. After filling up with petrol (I had asked my OH to get me a packet of ciggies) I sat and looked at them, still sealed and paused. At that point I could have just thrown them in the glove box out of sight till I could get rid of them but I opened them :mad:

My OH was ready to quit again (he started smoking again with me) and I knew that if I didn't stop again soon it would drag on and on. I also have 4p to my name for another week so that kinda helped :rolleyes:

So.......... I have now been quit for 12hours and 12 minutes lol. Though I did spend a lot of that time in bed

I have dipped in and out of here on my phone while I have been away (been with mum since it happened) so just want to say well done to all still enjoying there freedom. Welcome to all the new quitters and to all those like me, still trying.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

Gaynor x

[nsd_user663_18145]

oh Gaynor so sorry to hear about your loss my word its not been a very nice few weeks at all on here with people losing family and friends

sending you VIRTUAL (((HUGS)))

well done on jumping straight back on here again and you will succeed

never give up trying

onwards and upwards is the way to go

[nsd_user663_37391]

Hi Gaynor

Sorry to hear your sad news,big hugs coming your way.

Welcome back, New Year, New start.

Sara

x

[nsd_user663_5920]

Hi G,

Sorry to read of your recent family loss. Crap times

Good to see you back here though, once more on the quit wagon

Best wishes to you and your quit ... Happy New Year too :cool:

Pol xx

[nsd_user663_32615]

Good luck with your new quit, Gaynor. It has obviously been a very challenging time for you.

[nsd_user663_4625]

Thanks everyone for your kind replies.

Karri, I am very sorry to hear of your loss also. Tragic and devestating.

Well, I am half way through day 2. A huge part of me was not ready to start a quit now. My need to smoke was huge at the moment but I also know from experience that If I carried on smoking it would be a long while before I faced a quit again. Money had a big part to play in it as I said. A lot of unexpected expense left me broke till pay day and maybe just as well!!

I just wish that at the moment I stopped before I opened that packet I had taken the route of binning them and not opening them especially as I have now lost three quits due to close family deaths. Think I would have learned by now hey. It is done now and all I can do is move forward and on with this quit.

On a lighter note. I woke up this morning to realise my patch was not on my arm where I put it last night. Looked in the bed, no sign. Mentioned it OH and he said he found it under his left arm pit :eek: He had got up early with a headache. Not surprising as he had his own patch on and had acquired mine also I don't have one on at the moment and will see how I go. I have my trusty lozenges so not completely cold turkey. Will just go with the flow

Have a good, smoke free day everyone.

Gaynor x

[nsd_user663_4149]

Sorry I missed this post G, been a bit hectic the last couple of days. I'm sorry about the sad loss for you and Mum too. Don't start beating yourself up about your slip back, just start healing again. Davidxxx

[nsd_user663_4625]

No worries David, I think I owe you more than one e-mail I hope that you are doing well and feeling good.

Day 3 in a couple of hours and just plodding through to be honest. I eventually put another patch on yesterday as I was having a 'moody' induced by my quit. Can't be doing with that and everything else at the mo so slapped a patch on

Back to work tomorrow but I know all to well a fag will not improve anything there. I don't think anything could :eek:

It is nice however not to be freezeing my do dahs off in the cold and have told mum when we are back up next weekend she doesn't need to fish the ashtray out lol. She always makes sure it is out in the sun lounge when we get there along with a heater in the winter. No need this time

Off to see the smoking cessation counsellor on Tuesday and have co2 reading. She didn't bother when we went a fortnight ago, she didn't want to put us off!!!! OH is still going as well, just as well. He keeps me on the straight and narrow under normal circustances.

Have a good smoke free week everyone and remember, no matter how hard it seems YOU CAN DO IT

Gaynor x

[nsd_user663_33441]

Re: Patches

Hey Gaynor, I quit yesterday too with patches, but have not renewed one today?? Had a few puffs on inhalator but not much, don't like it really. So not sure what I doing. Sorry. Mixed up Zoe here, can you advise??

Love Zoe xxxx

[nsd_user663_4625]

Hi Zoe,

Personally I would say if you find the patches help then put a new one on!! I tried to go without yesterday as I said but got the 'arse' over nothing! I find patches have always helped with the symtoms in the past. I use the lozenges as well. I was given the spray but have not used it. My OH did and it took his head off lol.

You have managed to quit before, how did you manage it last time?

Am wishing you well with this quit I really am. I have tried so many times myself. Someone here said it pained them to see me putting myself through this time and time again. That made me think.

Gaynor x