well here goes.

[nsd_user663_40749]

Ok day 1 passed by,last night was horrible.Had the worst nightmares than got up and yelled at my poor partner.I was so Angry.I am worried how I am going to keep my kool today.I really would like to stay in bed and just feel sorry for myself,but I have 3kids including a baby to run around after.Must remember why I want to do this.My older children in all seriousness gave me a list of reasons why they wanted me to stop smoking,it broke my heart.Must remember,I think I will make a few photocopied and put it up around the house.Oh please day2 be reasonable.

[nsd_user663_6426]

Hiya mumto3, you're doing great. I cannot imagine the stress with two kids and a baby to look after...bloody hell, I only have one! I think there's a lady (codename boo on here) that also has 3 kids so she may have some great advice on how to keep sane! Your kids will be so proud of their mum....and they were so concerned obviously about your smoking. Do it for yourself and them, so you'll have a long life, shared together with loads of memories.

Lisa x

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Thanks lisa42,almost lunch cant really say I have had any cravings today yet.I think I am clenching my teeth though,feel a huge build up of a monster headache brewing.Going cold turkey,smoked 15yrs,maybe 8th attempt to quit,best successs with no nrt.Longest quit was 3months.was at the stage after every cig I would brush my teeth and wash my hands and spray deodorant to disguise the smell.My partner is a heavy smoker,everyone is family,friends.I know I can be a non smoker,besides when I started smoking I knew I did not want to do it forever and that one day I would have to quit.Well I am now 35yrs old,I need to keep my promise .Now is now,not later which may not even be.

[nsd_user663_6426]

You're doing great and glad you're not feeling the cravings. This is the longest I've ever been quit in 17 years (a bit sad really that I could never quit for longer before, I don't think the NRT helped there, either that or my mind wasn't in the right place to quit).

Anyhow, You're doing fantastic considering your OH smokes and all your family. Really gritty determination to not be tempted to smoke. But like you say, one day you wake up and think "I don't want to do this anymore". In my case I was feeling really ill and tired day in, day out and figured it must be the smoking...and by crikey it was, never felt better since! I'm 37 and this quit is THE quit.....like you I can't put it off any more, if I do then smoking will literally be the death of me!

We're in it together...let's do this!

lisa x

[nsd_user663_40749]

Ok...ok.just got back from shopping with the kids,OMG took every bit of patience I had in my body,I feel soo angry.I literally have to stop myself from wanting to punch my partner in the head,jeez I hate him right now.I just want to go to bed,but I have to go make dinner,bath bubs and bring in the washing.Oh please god,dLisaeliver me some more patience.

[nsd_user663_20978]

Hiya mumto3, you're doing great. I cannot imagine the stress with two kids and a baby to look after...bloody hell, I only have one! I think there's a lady (codename boo on here) that also has 3 kids so she may have some great advice on how to keep sane! Your kids will be so proud of their mum....and they were so concerned obviously about your smoking. Do it for yourself and them, so you'll have a long life, shared together with loads of memories.

Lisa x

lol lisa codename boo

i got 5 kids and am 1 year and 13 days clean so it can be done honestly

you just have to dig in and get through the tough times and then it gradually gets easier

you know i found i am more relaxed and not stressed since quitting i believe i used to create stress in order to justify my smoking

i now enjoy pure quality time with my kids without having to nip out for a fag break

if i can do it then u sure can

boo

[nsd_user663_39959]

Your circumstances make my quit sound pathetic in comparison!

Just remember the things your kids wrote down every time you have doubts. Also, it helped enormously to come here and sound off whenever you need a little psychological boost!

The most important thing to remember though, is that it gets easier over time (not the having kids, the non-smoking :D).

[nsd_user663_40648]

Hope you're feeling better today. I fully sympathise I am 36 and have two children and I'm on yet another attempt to quit. I am nearly day 11.

I feel like my whole family are colluding to be more irritating and awkward than ever..which is making me feel very :mad: but it must be me??!!! However, hubby is being very patient with me and he has quite a short temper,so he must really want me to give up to be exercising such self control. However I completely understand your feeling of hatred towards your husband! :eek:

If you're like me, the first few days of quitting you would rather be alone to mope and sit and rock in a corner feeling sorry for yourself and what you are being denied, but try and keep thinking why you are doing this. This feeling will pass I promise you.

My children have got to an age where they fully understand what will happen to me if I keep smoking and the pressure from them has finally caused me to quit.

I think dealing with the lack of patience is really hard. I admit I am really struggling with that. I am alone in the day so can't imagine how hard it is for you without any mental space at all.

We just have to keep plodding on though I bet today will be a better day

Love

Flossie