Hi...what a good forum
Today I have decided to stop smoking again. I gave up on boxing day for 11 days without too many issues and then when the first stress arrived into my life I stupidly thought by having a cigarette the problem would magically go away. Unfortunately this was followed by another cigarette and then another and in a just a few days I am back to smoking the same number as before. The problems did NOT go away....surprise surprise. I cannot understand why I thought that they would...I think it went something like....if I could release the part of my brain that was being devoted to giving up smoking I would be able to give the problems at hand my full attention. I suppose it did in a way...but I think it was more to do with ME allowing my brain to concentrate on the problems and nothing to do with whether I smoked or not. The problems upset me just as much as they would have done if I had smoked....I still constantly thought about them and stressed about them. In fact my brain then got taken over with the thoughts like...'well am I going to carry on smoking or give stopping another try' as well. Smoking did NOTHING to solve the problems.
So today I have thrown all remaining cigarettes in the bin, applied a nrt patch to my arm and have decided to stop again. I will not be put off by one little slip...........I CAN do this.. I WANT to do this... I WILL do this. LIFE IS TOO SHORT NOT TO DO THIS