Hello :)

Well... Im here.

Didnt think id have gotten this far, thought at day 4 that i would have cracked... but i didnt, im still plodding on.

Its not been easy, there have been times where i could have given up and brought a pack, tasted that bitter taste of defeat.

My triggers have been:

Being on my own: others would class this as boredom but its not that.. even though i was occupied, being on my own is a trigger for me, the feeling of lonlyness.. a ciggarette always filled the time. I got around this by using my new coffee machine, buying yet more books and cleaning.

Coffee and laptop kitchen combo: No its not a Dominos/pizza hut new pizza and it dosnt come with a side order of curley fries! Its an early morning ritual where i would flick on the kettle, load up the lappy and inhale that first load of crap of the day... i got round it by going into the living room (no smoking area even when i was a smoker) with my laptop and coffee and sitting in comfort.

Certain friends and family: a close friend and 2 members of my family (Aunt and Father) I havnt avoided them, but i havnt been chasing after them to inhale their fumes either.. My closest friend and my Father came to our house on Christmas day, my Dad was here all day smoking away like a chimney, at first i thought i was going to find it stupidly hard.. but i didnt, it was easy... at first.. :o

Then the evening buffett time came and my friend came around too, they both know each other so naturally spent time in the kitchen (smokers zone) chopsin away in comfort with a ciggy in one hand and booze in the other.... I contented myself with home made rum jello shots, wine and anything else that came to hand.. I did at one point get my inhalator out, but my OH took it away from me, like he said, iv done so well for so long, iv been cold turkey since day 8... why bring back "the crutch"

Tbh after they had gone i couldnt wait to empty the ashtray and get rid of the smell of smoke, it smelt vile, i could smell it on my cloths, in my hair.. everywhere :(

Phone calls/gossip: I really didnt think that useing either my landline or my mobile would be a trigger... whadda you know!?! it friggin is!

All them times of deep interesting gossip/bitching or getting annoyed at people (council/utiliti companies etc) i used to have a little friend in my fingers burning away, staining my insides like my foul language would stain the phone line (especially if its the council!) Now i just sit.. without anything in my hand.. weird.

Even the stress of being in hospital hasnt got me reaching for one. Its strange, 18yrs of being stubborn and thinking i couldnt quit, yet here i am day 31 of being an "ex smoker"

Heres to even more days of not giving in...:D

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  • Well... Im here.

    Didnt think id have gotten this far, thought at day 4 that i would have cracked... but i didnt, im still plodding on.

    Its not been easy, there have been times where i could have given up and brought a pack, tasted that bitter taste of defeat.

    My triggers have been:

    Being on my own: others would class this as boredom but its not that.. even though i was occupied, being on my own is a trigger for me, the feeling of lonlyness.. a ciggarette always filled the time. I got around this by using my new coffee machine, buying yet more books and cleaning.

    Coffee and laptop kitchen combo: No its not a Dominos/pizza hut new pizza and it dosnt come with a side order of curley fries! Its an early morning ritual where i would flick on the kettle, load up the lappy and inhale that first load of crap of the day... i got round it by going into the living room (no smoking area even when i was a smoker) with my laptop and coffee and sitting in comfort.

    Certain friends and family: a close friend and 2 members of my family (Aunt and Father) I havnt avoided them, but i havnt been chasing after them to inhale their fumes either.. My closest friend and my Father came to our house on Christmas day, my Dad was here all day smoking away like a chimney, at first i thought i was going to find it stupidly hard.. but i didnt, it was easy... at first.. :o

    Then the evening buffett time came and my friend came around too, they both know each other so naturally spent time in the kitchen (smokers zone) chopsin away in comfort with a ciggy in one hand and booze in the other.... I contented myself with home made rum jello shots, wine and anything else that came to hand.. I did at one point get my inhalator out, but my OH took it away from me, like he said, iv done so well for so long, iv been cold turkey since day 8... why bring back "the crutch"

    Tbh after they had gone i couldnt wait to empty the ashtray and get rid of the smell of smoke, it smelt vile, i could smell it on my cloths, in my hair.. everywhere :(

    Phone calls/gossip: I really didnt think that useing either my landline or my mobile would be a trigger... whadda you know!?! it friggin is!

    All them times of deep interesting gossip/bitching or getting annoyed at people (council/utiliti companies etc) i used to have a little friend in my fingers burning away, staining my insides like my foul language would stain the phone line (especially if its the council!) Now i just sit.. without anything in my hand.. weird.

    Even the stress of being in hospital hasnt got me reaching for one. Its strange, 18yrs of being stubborn and thinking i couldnt quit, yet here i am day 31 of being an "ex smoker"

    Heres to even more days of not giving in...:D

    Hi

    I think being on one's own is a trigger because I used to take advantage of it and weed up as much as possible before wife or kids etc got back.

    I cut out the coffee and have actually relocated my laptop into the lounge.

    I agree, its friends that get me too, especially when having a drink. I actually failed on box/day because of it. However, like you I have developed strategies to combat it - Mr Carr is good.

    Stick a pen in your hand when on the phone. Its not to replace the weed, its to keep your hands occupied. :)

    I tell you what though, I couldn't cope as you are doing with ashtrays etc in the house. I would tell them all to buggar off outside and smoke.

  • Hi

    I think being on one's own is a trigger because I used to take advantage of it and weed up as much as possible before wife or kids etc got back.

    I cut out the coffee and have actually relocated my laptop into the lounge.

    I agree, its friends that get me too, especially when having a drink. I actually failed on box/day because of it. However, like you I have developed strategies to combat it - Mr Carr is good.

    Stick a pen in your hand when on the phone. Its not to replace the weed, its to keep your hands occupied. :)

    I tell you what though, I couldn't cope as you are doing with ashtrays etc in the house. I would tell them all to buggar off outside and smoke.

    Iv never read Mr Carr (until i googled i thought it was the gay comedian) but without even cracking the spine i know it wouldnt work for me (like i said, i googled the fella and got a bit of info)

    To me its about not being able to afford the habit and not wanting the habit anymore.. i dont need someone telling me stuff i already know and i certainly dont want to pay for the privilege of him telling me stuff i already know. This isnt to belittle anyone thats uses this method... mine had to come from me telling me, not someone else making money out of telling me... if you get me?

    I only used the patches for 8 days, id brought and opened up my second packet and thought "jesus..the price iv just payed for these and the inhalator is 5 days worth of smokes" :confused: Then it hit me, i was still wasting money even though i wasnt smoking! Id said that i wouldnt buy anymore after that pack of patches, why should i throw yet more money at the habit?

    Lucky (unlucky?) for me i went into hospital on the monday, came home monday night and had to return on the tuesday for surgery, because i had to be there very early i didnt have time to do most things... putting a patch on wasnt the top of my list if you get me?

    I went all day without even thinking about it and the next day after surgery i went without.. i thought it was because id had alot more on my mind to think about so i decided to call my own bluff 1st day back at home i decided to go without a patch as well.... from then on in i havnt used the patches.

    The inhalator has been used once, its had one of the little cartradgies used and thats all, like i said i did get tempted to have one on sunday, if it hadnt have been for my OH taking it away i possibly would have had one, it was the first time id been in a "social" situation with my guard being lowered by alcohol.

    Having the astrays and other smokers didnt bother me for one good reason in my eyes...

    I no longer want to be a smoker

    But just because i no longer want to be a smoker, it shouldnt stop others from doing as they want. I always said i wouldnt be one of them ex smokers that frown upon other smokers, tut and cover their nose... and i damn well wont be, after all, i understand their craving, its not the fact that these ex smokers find the habit disgusting an what not... its because that person is still fighting the craving... tutting and being disaproving of others is just hiding the fact that their craving is kicking in.... but thats just my opinion.

    What is it that you think triggered your "fail" was it because your guard was down? Was it the need to feel that you were... like them? (tryin to find the words, but not getting it....)

    I found that my trigger was because they looked so comfy, talkign away with a drink in one hand and a smoke in the other.. Just how i used to be when i was a smoker.. mine was deffinatly the hand to mouth contact too... so i put peanuts in my hand instead lol ;)

  • umm.. durrrrr

    Iv just realised this is in the wrong month >.<

    Should have put this into month 2

    :rolleyes:

  • Iv just realised this is in the wrong month >.<

    Should have put this into month 2

    :rolleyes:

    ha ha thought we'd all gone back a month :D

  • Lol nope, just me being a bit blonde. ;)

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