I am now on day 9 and my god this week is better than last!!
I'm not really a cryer but last week I burst into tears on numerous occassions feeling lost, lonely, pointless and without meaning to sound insesitive; depressed!
I hadn't planned on giving up smoking and so I felt my struggle was more complicated (more mind games) than the quitters who no longer enjoyed cigarettes, but were compelled to do so. I LOVE (D) smoking and planned on giving up when I wanted to start a family... so not anytime soon. Not the case at all probably, but I was VERY woe is me!
I had decided though that during the first week I would allow myself to wallow in self pity and by the second week I would need to get on with life.
I sobbed into my carpet for the last time at about 9pm Sunday evening and when I woke on Monday morning I didn't allow myself to think, I just went straight to the gym before work. Then I went to a fun class at the gym last night. Then, I went to the gym this morning, and Im going to another class tonight.... I am replacing one obsession with another!
I am starting to see the positives of giving up smoking for the first time. Mostly by researching the many ways I can spend the money I am saving...
£45 so far in just 9 days... by christmas I will have saved myself about £250!
I have told my mind that I am incorporating my quit into a 3 week detox plan I started yesterday. To be honest, I find I am craving a chinese almost as much as I crave a cigarette - which to me, is great, as a full-on detox means visible results quicker (i.e healthier skin, hair and a slimmer waistline). And it wouldn't be a proper detox if I still smoked! I have also ordered some yoga dvds which should arrive tomorrow.
I very much suppress my feelings and quitting smoking somehow uncovered a few issues which I need to address in my life (mainly loneliness - i moved to another town with work) and I am now beginning to see it as a welcome opportunity to make some more positive changes other than just stopping smoking!
Don't get me wrong, it's still hard and I still crave, but it I can see now that it will get better as I find that the days are becoming shorter and I am realising more and more what a pathetic human being I was last week - haha!
I needed last week to feel sorry for myself, because to be honest, with the concentration of a nat, I could barely do much else. BUT, I really do believe that us complex individuals really possess the power to change our emotions and outlook on life - it just requires effort!