Of all the things I expected and dreaded in the process of giving up - I never in a million years expected to be enjoying it :eek:
Day 37 - certainly didn't expect to get here - I remember telling my husband 40 days ago that I'm going to try but I don't expect to suceed. Well - I don't think of myself as a non-smoker yet but 37 successful days of not smoking will do me just fine thank you very much.
So apart from that "surprised at myself" feeling - this morning I smelt the woods I walk through for the first time - it was just wonderful, taking in huge sniffs and being able to smell the wet vegetation. I could smell the rain and it smelt GOOD! For the first time this morning I got a high from the huge deep breath of air I was able to inhale - oxygen is my new addiction I think. And I'm beating my record on walking to the station 25 minutes down to 20! And I get more time in bed as I'm not getting up early to make time to smoke (:rolleyes:).
I am having really stressful days at work - but for some reason my mood stays just the same - happy and relaxed and letting all go past me...AND not really thinking about smoking.
I am gradually - ever so slowly but surely getting used to be a non-smoker.
And as great as I feel right now - I never ever want to smoke again if only because I would have to give up again, and the 2nd time round would just not have the same feeling to it.
I still get cravings though - but they just serve to remind me enjoy the happiness but never to forget that the nico-demon is still there waiting to pounce if I let my guard down.
And this is just today as well - tomorrow could be one of those massive craving days - but hey ho, that's tomorrow.
Anyone else feeling like this - remember Zoe singing alot a couple of weeks ago...