Today there was a considerable gap between waking up and first cig thought (i say considerable, i mean more than 10 seconds!)
Around 9.30am had irrational anger at non-smoking colleague as they dont have to ever think about smoking - for some reason thought "i'll show you" - as if they would even care!
Around 10.30am had a few "future smoking" thoughts, e.g imagine doing revision and automatically imagine a cig with it, but no big deal
In the afternoon felt a bit low and kinda "oh, i'm a bit tired of all of this now". Could've easily smoked, but sure it'd just annoy me that i had and also the positives such as saving £ and running further are just tipping the scales in favour of staying quit.
In the eve went for a walk to get out of the house with OH, we're def "in widthdrawal" as just a bit irritable and stuff which is really annoying - but guess this is just something we have to get through before we get to the easier bit:(.
Some random thoughts on smoking/quitting today
1. Yes i've thought about smoking a lot, and in the past that's driven me mad, but this time i thought - why wouldnt i be thinking about smoking? That's all i've done for years - and accepting that really helped
2. In a "struggling" moment sometimes just acknowleging that you're NOT going to smoke for the next, hour say, makes it easier, it's the shall i/shant i tthat is exhausting
3. Another thing when you are thinking about smoking is to imagine it - what would it acutally be like? i know from past failures that's it never what i imagine, at best it's average, at worst it's vile and makes you feel bad emotionally cos you lost a quit.
Not as nice as day 1, but couldve been worse. Hob-nobs for me now.
114 days on...5k done.
Day 28 - Stoptober Done!
2 failed attempts in 2 days !
1 week 2 days of no smoking :) 
