Committing to quitting

Tomorrow is my final day 1. I have been here many times before, I pretty much haven't stopped thinking about quitting or trying to quit since my first attempt this year which was January 17th and lasted 4 days. My “reason” for smoking again then was along the lines of “oh I know I can do it now, so I’ll do it properly next time” (oh so naive to the nicodemon!). Since then various quits have lasted various amounts of time and had various "reasons" for smoking againbut my fave has always been “I’ll do it tomorrow” and genuinely believed it every time, then tomorrow becomes the next day, becomes the weekend etc, etc.

This time I am committing to quitting. Good or bad, overall I know it is the right thing. i've done my reading, i feel prepared, i feel positive. The tomorrow thing cant continue or it will be the end of April, then May and I’ll just be where I am now. I wouldn’t still be here, still be trying if I didn’t really want to, so I need to just do this now. I want to know what it’s like to go a whole week without smoking, and more, to not worry about my health, smelling bad, spending money on cigs and all my other reasons.

Mostly now I don’t even like smoking anymore, I just do it cos partly addiction, partly cos it’s what I know, how my day goes. I know it doesn’t help with stress, from experience. It adds stress cos I feel the stress of having “lost a quit” and shelling out money I don’t have when buying them.

I want to be able to have a “non-smoking” diary – I wanna know what it’s like past day 5, to be able to be proud of myself. To get to the point where I’m amazed that I haven't smoked for so long, to hit the milestones. There are many more reasons but mostly i dont want smoking to be part of my life anymore.

Sorry for the looonng post but in the past months i've tried "secretly" quitting, but really that was just an excuse so i wouldnt have to fessed up if i messed up:p So for me part of committing is posting on here. if i've missed anything vital, let me know - but i think i've used all the words there are :D

See you tomorrow eve :)

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  • *CLAPS*

    So are you excited about being here for the last time? :)

  • Hope tomorrow goes well for you Lulabelle, look forward to seeing your posts :D

  • *CLAPS*

    So are you excited about being here for the last time? :)

    Yes very! In the past with re-starts i've been annoyed about having to go through day 1-5 AGAIN, cos i know i can do them so feel like they "dont count", but that's my own fault and so now looking at it as each day not smoking is a good thing so will enjoy each day (hopefully:p)

  • Hi Lulabelle...what you said just hit home to me. Im on day 18 now. To say that all you've thought about is quitting is very good....I tried many times but this time for weeks all I thought about doing was quitting. Also, I too didnt enjoy smoking towards the end.

    Good luck with the next few days...You can do it..:)

  • Well done on taking the plunge :D You'll be fine...you've done the hardest bits before ;), and your mind seems to be in the right place. Just remember to come on here and read and post when the going gets tough. Far better to have a rant amongst the company of 'friends', than to lose another quit.

  • Yeah well done Lulabelle for trying again and not giving up. I hope all goes well for you, good luck and keep posting xxx:D

  • Hi Lullabelle, A Great post to read! good luck on for tomorrow :)

  • Listen world i moi have stopped smoking.

    Good luck Lula, I know how difficult it is to commit to quiting its taken me ages to make that move, if im honest iv wanted to quit since starting age 10 over 40 ys ago. its only in the last 2 yrs that iv finally done something about it , had a few attempts and have stayed clean for months only to cave in again and regret it, i smoked for years so i dont expect overnight success but ido learn a lot from each quit and relapse and now i think i prefer not smoking to smoking, im on my 25 day without one and am doing well thanks to patches, inhalator and this forum, its so boring and hard doing it on your own, its something we smokers need to talk about and tell folk how its going. giving up smoking is a huge thing to do and when i,tell people about it i dont want them to just say ' oh right' i want the world to stop, it should cos this is the most important thing in my life right now, iv listened to the rest of the world bleating on for ys now its my turn,

    Mashx

  • so happy that you are commiting to quitting!! i wish you the best first day of not smoking ever!! YOU CAN DO IT!! we are all here for ya so let us know how well you are doing!! please dont give up! the storm is difficult to weather in the beginning but once you get through that its much easier !!:)

  • Tomorrow is my final day 1. I have been here many times before, I pretty much haven't stopped thinking about quitting or trying to quit since my first attempt this year which was January 17th and lasted 4 days. My “reason” for smoking again then was along the lines of “oh I know I can do it now, so I’ll do it properly next time” (oh so naive to the nicodemon!). Since then various quits have lasted various amounts of time and had various "reasons" for smoking againbut my fave has always been “I’ll do it tomorrow” and genuinely believed it every time, then tomorrow becomes the next day, becomes the weekend etc, etc.

    Hi Lulabelle,

    Your comments above sounds like me talking! I have been trying to quit for 4 years and have failed many times during that period. The reasons for me failing have been, being on holiday on a beach, stressful periods due to family illness and getting irritable during quitting.

    My first attempt lasted about 8 months and your comment of "I know I can do it now", seems to ring true with me too. As I have now attempted it many times, I know that stopping for a while can be done, but at certain times you just feel, "I will have one or two then get back on the wagon, then stop again". This is a very frustrating feeling, because really I just want to stay off them for good. At times my willpower is really strong and then I drop my guard and I am back at stage one.

    Like you, I want this time to be the last attempt at quitting. We are now non-smokers and every day that passes will be a milestone.

    As they say, "If at first you don't succeed, try try again"

    Be positive!!

    Woody

  • Tomorrow is my final day 1. I have been here many times before, I pretty much haven't stopped thinking about quitting or trying to quit since my first attempt this year which was January 17th and lasted 4 days. My “reason” for smoking again then was along the lines of “oh I know I can do it now, so I’ll do it properly next time” (oh so naive to the nicodemon!). Since then various quits have lasted various amounts of time and had various "reasons" for smoking againbut my fave has always been “I’ll do it tomorrow” and genuinely believed it every time, then tomorrow becomes the next day, becomes the weekend etc, etc.

    This time I am committing to quitting. Good or bad, overall I know it is the right thing. i've done my reading, i feel prepared, i feel positive. The tomorrow thing cant continue or it will be the end of April, then May and I’ll just be where I am now. I wouldn’t still be here, still be trying if I didn’t really want to, so I need to just do this now. I want to know what it’s like to go a whole week without smoking, and more, to not worry about my health, smelling bad, spending money on cigs and all my other reasons.

    Mostly now I don’t even like smoking anymore, I just do it cos partly addiction, partly cos it’s what I know, how my day goes. I know it doesn’t help with stress, from experience. It adds stress cos I feel the stress of having “lost a quit” and shelling out money I don’t have when buying them.

    I want to be able to have a “non-smoking” diary – I wanna know what it’s like past day 5, to be able to be proud of myself. To get to the point where I’m amazed that I haven't smoked for so long, to hit the milestones. There are many more reasons but mostly i dont want smoking to be part of my life anymore.

    Sorry for the looonng post but in the past months i've tried "secretly" quitting, but really that was just an excuse so i wouldnt have to fessed up if i messed up:p So for me part of committing is posting on here. if i've missed anything vital, let me know - but i think i've used all the words there are :D

    See you tomorrow eve :)

    Wonderful post Lulabelle, I can feel the emotion in every word. Thank you for sharing your thoughts xx

    So happy for you and look forward to seeing your progress on here. Email or pm me if you need a virtual kick, hug or shoulder to cry on!

    Am here cheering you on all the way!

  • but mostly i dont want smoking to be part of my life anymore.

    Look at your quote above an remember it whenever you crave. You can do this Lula.

    Stick with it !!!!

  • You can do it Lula just think of all the reasons you said. If I can after over 30 years YOU can. All the best to you Bet xx:)

  • Since then various quits have lasted various amounts of time and had various "reasons" for smoking againbut my fave has always been “I’ll do it tomorrow” and genuinely believed it every time, then tomorrow becomes the next day, becomes the weekend etc, etc.

    Yep. My 'tomorrow' didn't come for 24 years. Don't let that happen to you.

    Choose not to smoke, each crave, each hour, each day. That's all there is to it. Not that making that choice is always easy, I admit. But ultimately, it *is* all you have to do to succeed.

    I'm so pleased you're back on the quit Lu. With you all the way.

    Helen xxx

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