this is so hard.
feel so low, my first day of my second attempt, tired, depressed, exhausted, flat, lethargic, couldn't be bothered.
how long till this passes, just have this energy that people talk about as a benefit of stopping. do you have any tips in the meantime? sometimes life can be hard. it's like, the people i work with, sort of, well they don't give you much leeway, like, they aren't very forgiving, so you just have to try to hide things like this and sort of force yourself through it, but it was really difficult today, things like that make it very unpleasant, it's like very disorientating and i felt quite alienated and left out. its hard to describe. sometimes people aren't interested in other people and only themselves. well anyway, this is very much an interesting experience in spite of feeling like this, it's like, this is how everyone else lives, i haven't felt this way since i was a boy, when i smoke it makes me tense, nervous, lethargic/melancholic, self-conscious, it's terrible, like a waste, but i suppose thats the way things are so their isn't anything to do but to keep going forward. anyway, thanks for reading this, i hope you reply, if you don't its okay, i hope you have a good day tommorrow.