Numero Due!

[nsd_user663_24750]

Woohoo on day 2! Last night was pretty difficult but I got through it with jobs and cooking. Work tends to be ok, it's just at home! It's fine though, I wasn't expecting it to be easy! Focus on the positive =D

[nsd_user663_20547]

Peaky,

Really well done to you, you are doing fantastically well. Keep your positive mental attutude and you will stay quit. It isnt easy, but its not impossible and when you are settled with your quit you feel great about yourself and that you can do anything!

Jill xx

[nsd_user663_24750]

I know exactly what you mean. I used to use it as treats for jobs - do the polishing, time for a fag, do the hoovering, time for a fag etc etc. I actually didn't feel like I had extra time last night oddly enough, probably because I filled it with jobs/errands that I normally can't be bothered to do because I had wasted so much time smoking anyway. At the moment I really don't want time to sit down with nothing to do so I'm very wary of keeping myself TOO busy and getting everything done too soon!

It's a bit more difficult at work today because my usual work stresses are creeping in and getting on my wick. Whenever there's a mess here I'm always the one left to sort it out! However, I smell flamin marvellous today haha!

[nsd_user663_24750]

Thanks guys. The messages are helping lot. Just as I type this the office phone and my work mobile rang at the same time. I'm smiling but it's a little bit more like I'm bearing my teeth right now! (Haha and now my personal mobile is ringing). I think i'll go make myself a niiiiiiice cup of tea to prevent me flushing all 3 phones down the toilet

[nsd_user663_20547]

Sounds stressful lol.

I warned everyone I was quitting and they knew to stay out of my way, however there where a few engineers that found it funny to make a few gags and they got the short end of my temper lol. Yesterday my MIL did somthing to reallllllllly make me angry and I could well have lifted a ciggy and smoked it but I always think "it wont make it any better, in fact she will have won becasue I am now smoking again and that is somthing else she will have against me" there is always a reason for NOT smoking so try and remember those.

xxx

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Oh yeah absolutely! Thankfully nobody is purposefully trying to annoy me, it's just the natural state of affairs here anyway. We're community children's physios. The part timers tend to rock in, rock out, not check any of their messages or sort anything out. They just see their patients. I am the only full timer and I basically deal with both mine and their problems because they're rarely around. This ends up with their problems getting worse as the parents continue to ring for help! Put it this way - we all have work mobiles, they leave them in the office switched off (RAGE!) I spend more time in the office than I do seeing patients myself! This week I am taking time out regularly to post on this forum, as my health and happiness means more to me than sorting out their problems.

This is something that I regularly communicate to them but it tends to fall on deaf ears. Phew, end of rant!

The strange thing is that I don't think I'm craving a cigarette. I've got the stressy butterfly feeling in my chest and throat - I just can't get rid of it. I keep trying various techniqies but it the feeling remains. I'm off to see a patient now so I think that will help a lot to change my train of thought.