Think brain has gone wonky somewhere - trying to get it back on track.. issues are...
1. Work issues and toothache made me think - cant handle this and not smoking...so dealt with this by saying "yes but smoking wont make it better" - but brain doesnt seem to care - just want to not have to handle the "thoughts" about not smoking on top of everything else
2.Frustrated that others seem to feel happy each day they make it, and i have in the past too but this time i'm not feeling "yay i'm on day 4/ only 1 hour off day 5 well done you" etc. just plodding on cos i know that smoking = bad.
Dont really have a plan other than "get through next minute, repeat" and hope that happiness dawns when i least expect it.