Need reassurance

Eve of day 2 was horrible - me and my brain had many fights..

Brain - you liked your life how it was

Me - obv not or i wouldnt have chosen to quit

Brain - i dont want to not smoke ever again

Me - never mind that, just dont smoke tonight

Brain - you can stop next week

Me - how will that be any different, may as well keep going now

But the worst one was along the lines of (this wont be very eloquently put) but basically....my brain was trying to find a "reason" to smoke again - trouble is because of all my failed attempts lately it's fresh in my mind that all the "reasons" my brain usually finds are in fact just "lame excuses"....so the fact that my brain couldnt find a reason was making me very very annoyed. It went on for ages - longer than normal "crave" - couple of hours - think cos it was more psychological than physical.

Anyway all this rambling brings me to this - yes i have made it to day 3, but i'm not esp happy about it, just kind of "meh" feeling. At best I'm glad i'm not back at day 1 being annoyed with myself for smoking.

This will pass wont it - at some point i'll be glad i stuck it out? i wont always feel like not smoking is "boring"? (i know that doesnt make sense but is how it feels sometimes)

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  • Awesome!

    You will quite a few Meh days yet, however, each time you win the battle over your head you will find it easier to take on the next one. Eventually you learn the tactic of being able to ignore it.

    Keep going the way you are!

    Fi x

  • Yes, it will! It will it will it will.

    It won't happen overnight though - each crave is a small battle that is part of a longer war. That's where you have to try and be positive (a bit like the world war 2 keep yer chin up attitude!). Be proud of winning each battle, and keep going, and before you know it you'll be stringing up the bunting and having garden parties.

    Jeez. That may be the longest and crappiest metaphor I've ever used on this forum. But I hope it makes sense. In short, you're doing great, keep it up, it does improve!

  • Eve of day 2 was horrible - me and my brain had many fights..

    Brain - you liked your life how it was

    Me - obv not or i wouldnt have chosen to quit

    Brain - i dont want to not smoke ever again

    Me - never mind that, just dont smoke tonight

    Brain - you can stop next week

    Me - how will that be any different, may as well keep going now

    But the worst one was along the lines of (this wont be very eloquently put) but basically....my brain was trying to find a "reason" to smoke again - trouble is because of all my failed attempts lately it's fresh in my mind that all the "reasons" my brain usually finds are in fact just "lame excuses"....so the fact that my brain couldnt find a reason was making me very very annoyed. It went on for ages - longer than normal "crave" - couple of hours - think cos it was more psychological than physical.

    Anyway all this rambling brings me to this - yes i have made it to day 3, but i'm not esp happy about it, just kind of "meh" feeling. At best I'm glad i'm not back at day 1 being annoyed with myself for smoking.

    This will pass wont it - at some point i'll be glad i stuck it out? i wont always feel like not smoking is "boring"? (i know that doesnt make sense but is how it feels sometimes)

    Hey... I had a horrible day 2 yesterday too... we can feel each other's pain together :D

    Just think that the next time you are struggling, there is someone else out there (me :D) also feeling the same and not smoking.

  • Well Done Lullabelle!

    Keep Gong.

    I was thinking about what a powerful allie the mind is in this fight, but we need to keep it on side. When the mind is helping me i dont give it a thought, but when it changes sides i find it very difficult.

    As the only way I have found of bringing the mind back on my side is to feed it with information. Which for me is to remind it why im a non smoker now, and remind it of the positives of doing so.

    So i have decided that my easy way book will be with me at all times, and I will have this forum open at all times when on line.

    If I don not feed the mind when it is hungry, the Demon does, and it quickly changes sides again.

    Please keep going lullabelle

  • Hi lulabelle

    I can fully relate to your post from past quit attempts! not only has your quit been broken but its like your train of thought as too!

    of course it will pass... in a weeks time...you will feel different again!

    Someone once said to me you can smoke anytime you want but today you choose not too. Simple words make me feel good about my quit, like im in control.

    However your doing something amazing & should feel proud of yourself for getting back into.....From personal experience it takes lots of determination once the quit chain as been broken.

    Good luck:)

  • Hi lulabelle

    I can fully relate to your post from past quit attempts! not only has your quit been broken but its like your train of thought as too!

    of course it will pass... in a weeks time...you will feel different again!

    Someone once said to me you can smoke anytime you want but today you choose not too. Simple words make me feel good about my quit, like im in control.

    However your doing something amazing & should feel proud of yourself for getting back into.....From personal experience it takes lots of determination once the quit chain as been broken.

    Good luck:)

    That reminds me on one someone else said "you don't need to give up every cigarette. Only one - the next one."

  • That reminds me on one someone else said "you don't need to give up every cigarette. Only one - the next one."

    I like it :)

  • Thanks everybody.:) At the moment i am just reading and re-reading your responses trying to get it to sink in :o

    Work not going well and have dentist this eve, so feeling a bit sorry for myself and like these are potenital "reasons to smoke" - i know they're not, but it's annoying they are there at all...will keep going though - hopefully see you all tomorrow.

  • Hiya

    Awwww :-( ! I can remeber how tough those first few days were - I feel your pain.

    Even though there are lots of people on this forum that can attest to things getting alot easier as you get further along in your quit - if your brain doesn't want to beleive it, it won't! But it really does get better, I promise! Cross my heart and everything!

    You've just gotta ignore that pesky nicodemon as if it were a petulant child throwing a strop - eventually it will run out of steam and be quiet. It might not disappear completely for a while but it's getting weaker all the time.

    You can do this! Don't give in :-)

    xxx

  • Thanks everybody.:) At the moment i am just reading and re-reading your responses trying to get it to sink in :o

    Work not going well and have dentist this eve, so feeling a bit sorry for myself and like these are potenital "reasons to smoke" - i know they're not, but it's annoying they are there at all...will keep going though - hopefully see you all tomorrow.

    No hopefully about it - you better be here or else!! :p

  • Lula,

    You can do it; You will do it. You know the pain of doing it, but even more you know the benefits of doing it. You will not listen to brain; brain is so smoke addled he can not think clearly. Once the smoke clears, brain will be on your side. Brain is scared too, show him that there is nothing to be scared of.

    Cheers Lula, am thinking of you

  • I remember those days they were not very long ago! You have to fight the voice in your head it is only trying to mess with you. I know I felt that I was craving cigarettes 24 hours a day but it does gradually get better. Cravings turn into thoughts. Day 21 yesterday and I had some real crap going on in work which stresses me out. Brain was telling me again, there you go, stress you need to smoke now perfect excuse. It was so much easier to fight on day 21 than 2/3 - it was harder resisting all the chocolate in Asda though! Today I have hardly thought about smoking , its great.

    Rant scream, cry do whatever it takes to keep on top of those thoughts, it will get better I promise. Good Luck xx Tracey

  • Keep going Lulabelle, you are in the early days and it will be difficult, just hang on in there and it most definitely will get better.

    In the first few days it really helped me to think that every crave, every mad thought was another bit of my addiction dying. They scream louder in their death throws.

    The more you feel it, the more they are not given nicotine, the more they die, the closer you get to your goal. Sit tight, have a bath tonight, put on some music, chill out and treat yourself. You are officially in rehab.

  • No hopefully about it - you better be here or else!! :p

    Obviously i respond well to threats as i'm still here hanging on, smoke free (though OH has given in again!). The only reason i didnt smoke really is cos i couldnt find a good reason, (i realise there are none) - but couldnt even dress up a lame reason this time :p

    Worried i'll really struggle with another day like today so trying to be positive and think - "yay i've done 3 days/ no nicotine in me/it only gets better from here" etc....

    Bring on day 4 :cool:

  • Worry about tomorrow when tomorrow comes. One day at a time means exactly that. Today you have not smoked. So give yourself a big pat on the back!

    Well done Lu! :D

  • Worry about tomorrow when tomorrow comes. One day at a time means exactly that. Today you have not smoked. So give yourself a big pat on the back!

    Well done Lu! :D

    Ooo yeah - good thinking Hels. I would like to change that to "Sod off Day 4 :mad: Bring on the remainder of day 3 :cool:"

    Ahhh - that feels better :D

  • By jove, I think she's got it! :D

    *wanders off singing 'the rain in spain falls mainly in the plain'*

  • Obviously i respond well to threats as i'm still here hanging on, smoke free (though OH has given in again!). The only reason i didnt smoke really is cos i couldnt find a good reason, (i realise there are none) - but couldnt even dress up a lame reason this time :p

    Worried i'll really struggle with another day like today so trying to be positive and think - "yay i've done 3 days/ no nicotine in me/it only gets better from here" etc....

    Bring on day 4 :cool:

    Well done!!!

  • Well done for carrying on, it will get better :)

  • day 3 for me

    Hi All

    Day 3 for me just sounds like Lulabelle very bad cravings but I've not give in kept busy at work all day. Think being no smoking day helped. Didn't want to sit all night so I made some cupcakes, cleaned the oven, washed all the disgusting nicotine from kitchen cupboards hopefully for the last time. Bring on Day 4. I am on champix but don't think they are helping today, Doctor says you must take the 3 months course, side affects have calmed down now though.

    Christine

  • Hi Chris

    So well done on getting through it! Day 3 can be horrid - it's the rule of 3's - which doesn't help much but does mean we all understand!

    Stick with it though, it will get better - honest!

    Are you on Day 3 of Champix, or Day 3 of the quit?

    Good luck tomorrow, post and let us know how you're getting on.

  • Thanks Divingdale

    I am on Day 3 of my quit Day 16 of champix, didn't smoke much the second week on the champix though down from 25 a day to 6 a day so I think the tablets where a big help at first just not doing much now..Need the old WILLPOWER, Christine

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