Eve of day 2 was horrible - me and my brain had many fights..
Brain - you liked your life how it was
Me - obv not or i wouldnt have chosen to quit
Brain - i dont want to not smoke ever again
Me - never mind that, just dont smoke tonight
Brain - you can stop next week
Me - how will that be any different, may as well keep going now
But the worst one was along the lines of (this wont be very eloquently put) but basically....my brain was trying to find a "reason" to smoke again - trouble is because of all my failed attempts lately it's fresh in my mind that all the "reasons" my brain usually finds are in fact just "lame excuses"....so the fact that my brain couldnt find a reason was making me very very annoyed. It went on for ages - longer than normal "crave" - couple of hours - think cos it was more psychological than physical.
Anyway all this rambling brings me to this - yes i have made it to day 3, but i'm not esp happy about it, just kind of "meh" feeling. At best I'm glad i'm not back at day 1 being annoyed with myself for smoking.
This will pass wont it - at some point i'll be glad i stuck it out? i wont always feel like not smoking is "boring"? (i know that doesnt make sense but is how it feels sometimes)