Had one fag left over from the weekend and smoked it this morning at 10. It made me feel ill, dizzy, sick, why oh why oh why?? did I do it.
So I have to hold onto how awful it was, and trust me it was awful. I have well and truly opened the door for the monster to walk right in, and of course he did so without wiping his feet and right now he is making himself very comfy on my shoulder :mad:
I remember my last set of early hours/days/weeks very well and feel I am right back there, the only thing keeping me going is the fact that last time I quit I had smoked for 20 years at 20 a day and I did it, this time I have had about 10/15 in the last 48hours so it can't be as hard, can it?
I am going on holiday next weekend (skiing in France) and none of the people we are going with are smokers so I reckon if I can get to next Sunday I should be over the worst.
Thanks for all your support and help, wish I could return the favour but at the moment I need to really concentrate on me. In the past supporting has really helped and hopefully in a couple of days I will feel that again, but right now (selfishly) this is all about me getting through the next few days.
I CHOOSE NOT TO SMOKE TODAY.