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Had one fag left over from the weekend and smoked it this morning at 10. It made me feel ill, dizzy, sick, why oh why oh why?? did I do it.

So I have to hold onto how awful it was, and trust me it was awful. I have well and truly opened the door for the monster to walk right in, and of course he did so without wiping his feet and right now he is making himself very comfy on my shoulder :mad:

I remember my last set of early hours/days/weeks very well and feel I am right back there, the only thing keeping me going is the fact that last time I quit I had smoked for 20 years at 20 a day and I did it, this time I have had about 10/15 in the last 48hours so it can't be as hard, can it?

I am going on holiday next weekend (skiing in France) and none of the people we are going with are smokers so I reckon if I can get to next Sunday I should be over the worst.

Thanks for all your support and help, wish I could return the favour but at the moment I need to really concentrate on me. In the past supporting has really helped and hopefully in a couple of days I will feel that again, but right now (selfishly) this is all about me getting through the next few days.

I CHOOSE NOT TO SMOKE TODAY.

Thanks

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  • at the moment I need to really concentrate on me. In the past supporting has really helped and hopefully in a couple of days I will feel that again, but right now (selfishly) this is all about me getting through the next few days.

    Of course it's about you Bev, you get yourself sorted out, then you can go back to supporting others. Just don't forget how bad it is. People do relapse and hopefully, newbies read their posts and realise it could be them, it only takes one to be back to the start. David

  • Jump back on Bev - now armed with the memory of how awful it was, you are stronger and can do it this time:)

    Go Bev, go Bev!:D

  • Good luck tomorrow.

    France will probably do you good. Change of scenery!

  • Thanks for all your support and help, wish I could return the favour but at the moment I need to really concentrate on me. In the past supporting has really helped and hopefully in a couple of days I will feel that again, but right now (selfishly) this is all about me getting through the next few days.

    Thanks

    Your kind words have certainly helped me during the last few weeks so if I can be of any help you only have to ask.

    Do what you need to do and take it one day at a time.

    Take care

    Marilyn :)

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