Starting again, again. Have a had a few unsuccessful quits lately, most of them a bit half-hearted which isnt the way to go - and deliberately havent posted about them incase i fail - which i did :rolleyes:
However have still been reading lots and decided to try again - properly this time, so.... things i have learned from failing to quit...
1. From my 4 day quit - NEVER EVER think it's ok to smoke just one day/one cig...i know i know i've read all the N.O.P.E stuff, but think i needed to feel it firsthand
2. From this forum - sometimes it will be hard. I know that sounds odd, but when i have managed not to smoke for any length of time i've found it not too hard, but when it IS hard i cave in - but have seen on here other people really struggle and get through it and if they can, there's no (good) reason i cant.
3. Smoking SEEMS great when you're not smoking and want to, but when you do, it's really not great. Nothing amazing happens, in fact all that really happens is you wish you hadnt smoked.
4. I know everything there is to know now (well i'm sure not EVERYTHING, but near enough) what i mean is, because of the previous quits some longer than others, i know what to expect re widthdrawal, what it's like when you give into a crave, that it DOES get easier with time etc etc...the only thing to do now is not give in again and finally achieve what i want, which is being a non-smoker!
Anyway, reason for this rambling is a) to solidify it to myself and b) although i'm feeling quite good about this time, i thought it wouldn't hurt to have the small measure of "going public" so that if i even think about caving in tomorrow one of the many things i can think to get myself through it is that i can't have the guilt of having made you sit through this big long post for nothing! Have to come back and post again on Tues morning saying "i did it"
If i've missed anything crucial, let me know, but otherwise thanks for reading and sorry if you're sick of me but hopefully i'll be back soon with good news