Do I get an award

[nsd_user663_22289]

1 month today!

I am still really grumpy, infact have been reading up and think I may have quitters depression.

Does anyone else know anything about this

[nsd_user663_22289]

Sorry I pressed return before finnishing post.

As I was saying.....

I am grumpy (most of the time)

Paranoid (half of the time)

sick of the kids (alot of the time)

horrible to OH (most of the time)

All of this is not me. I was in tears yesterday as i thought my best friend and business partner had fallen out with me. She was actually in a rush to get her son to school so ran passed me. I never usually act like this, but now seem to be over reacting to lots of things, afternoons being worse than mornings.

Has anyone else on here experienced this. i did find some things about it when i googled it but not much that was very helpful, other than go to see GP, which I would rather avoid if I can help it.

Thanks anyone who reads this

Look after yourselves.

xxx

[nsd_user663_14771]

ye that sounds very familiar, i have a definite tendency to think the worst all the time, one of my work colleagues calls it catastraphising. so anyway we are going to have to train ourselves to recognise when our thoughts are getting negative, or as you say paranoid, and then find some other way of dealing with these things. i find that sharing my thoughts with someone i trust helps a lot, and preferably someone that knows i've just quit the ciggies!!

and yes you do get an award, well done on reaching one month quit!!

[bbbreezy]

Oh gosh Helen, I am terribly sorry, but I laughed out loud. Sounds quite like me of late; I think I am on day 28. OH and I quit at same time. I rather hate him of late and the thought of even a cuddle let alone anything else seems rather horrible. OH does not seem pleased! Kids were just put on this earth to annoy me and leave things out for me to trip on. Not much will bring me out of my funk these days. Paranoid, not so much, but all else bang on. I am guessing that many have gone/are going thru this.

I am hoping that warm, fuzzy loving feelings come back for the children and OH quite soon. I am hoping that the funk will soon go away. What is your method? I am on 1/2 dose Champix and wondering if that has anything to do with it.

Good luck - Best wishes for warm fuzzy feelings coming back soon

[nsd_user663_20591]

yes i believe most of us go through this!! i did and still do sometimes...it sucks but wont last forever. i feel for ya helen. at least once a day i think..hmmm i could really go for a cig right now to relax!! but i quickly redirect my thinking...keep strong hun one day at a time

[nsd_user663_22435]

oooo, I went thru hellish depression...in fact I posted on here when I was incredibly low. Luckily, that has actually died down, thank god. Both myself & my OH (we gave up at the same time) have been grumpy & snappy but it IS getting better. It's lucky, tho, that I informed all my family & friends what we were doing as I have been a right miserable cow at times so everyone has put up with me!!!! I read up about this when I was going thru it...it can be a grieving process but I feel it's also chemical...lets face it, we've been shoving shit into our lungs & the rest of our bodies for some time, so I felt it was part of the detoxing process (I was a heavy smoker)....& it's also said to affect those who have suffered depression in the past. However, I whinged & whined on here, told my OH & kids how I was feeling, cried oceans, walked miles & one day, while walking my dogs, I suddenly realised I was at long last enjoying the walk & what I was seeing...it felt like a bloody miracle! That was 2 weeks ago & I'm still testy, still craving every now & again but it's improving slowly. Hang on in there...dig in, breathe deep...it WILL pass

[nsd_user663_13466]

Hi

I suffered really badly with depression from around week 3. It got that bad I didn't want to get out of bed. I just felt so sad and really sorry for myself. But i'm now halfway through week 6 and I feel so much better in myself. So just keep going and it will get better. A friend suggested exercising to make me feel better so perhaps thats what has helped me.

[nsd_user663_22289]

Thanks everyone for all your replies. I don't know what to say really........I feel even worse now! Can't believe I am glad you have all been through the same. But at least it makes me feel more normal.

I think I will print out all your replies and give them to my OH. He has never smoked and doesn't really get how hard I am finding it. I think I resent him a little for that, but at the same time I know thats not fair. Sorry starting to ramble again - I am a head case!

bbbreezy i quit cold turkey so I am probably missing the nicotene buzz or something!???

Sorry if I sound grumpy and self indulgent - this is really not me! I am usually really happy, laid back and sarcastic..... but then someone told me that nicotene is a suppressant and numbs everything especially our emptions. So the reason I was so laid back was cause I smoked since I was 12 and have never known the "real me" - who is obviously just a first class cow!!

There I go again, sorry.....hope you all have a happy smoke free day.

xxx

ps. its funny, although I am REALLY fed up with how I'm feeling, I don't feel like smoking again.....

Thanks for listening/reading.

Helen

[bbbreezy]

Helen,

I admire you (all of you) for the CT; I am on the champix,(1/2 dose due to side effects). Don't feel it helps at all with cravings, but nevertheless, it is my crutch and I need it.

Think no matter what the method, we miss the buzz or something, but no matter how much missed (and I BLOODY WELL MISS IT), really isn't worth it.

When I feel like smothering hubby and packing a bag for the kids (no I wouldn't really), I read my 20 quit reasons. It somewhat brings me a bit out of the funk, but more than that, it allows ME the right to feel grumpy for what I am going thru and the long term benefits.

Helen, you have every right to be grumpy and self indulgent; look at what you are working towards.

Hubby quit at the same time as me and other than overeating in the evening, he is fine. THAT'S ONE REASON I WANT TO SMOTHER HIM. Why oh why cannot he feel as crummy, grumpy and nasty as I. It's just not fair!!!!

Hmmm, after that self indulgent rant, I feel a wee bit better now

Good day to all - Cheers from the hill

[nsd_user663_22435]

Lol @ bbbreezy...I don't blame you wanting to smother your husband if he's showing none of the similars side effects that you are! I think if mine was the same, I'd really want to cause him pain! Luckily, he's suffered in his way too...a lot sicker, he's been & coughing more than me so I've let him live! It does help to remember why we did it & at least, the forum's just a click away!