Day 5... help!

So I've made it to day 5! Yay!

Except I don't feel so yay, The whole physical side effects thing wasn't so bad, and I had a real determination on the first few days.

Last night I came home before hubby for the first time since I quit and I really struggled. This morning he's at work and I feel the same again!

Its like I can't get them out of my head. All I keep thinking is "oh fag time...oh no don't do that anymore" over and over and over.

I'm going out this afternoon, but I do often spend alot of time at home alone, and I really can't avoid it for long.

I started kniting to distract myself, but that just makes me think " when i finish this row I'll have a fag..."

I'm also starting to wonder if I really wanted to do this. I don't want to be a smoker, but I'm starting to wonmder if I want to be a non smoker either?

I know that if I had a fag now I'd just feel sick and hate it, and I also know it wouldn't solve my curiousness (lost to that one before), so I know there's no reason to and I don't even really want to, I just want this voice to go away. I just want to forget that I could????

Dunno if any of that makes any sense, but I do actually feel better for writing it, so I guess thats the point!

Just confused as to why its getting harder not easier, and now I'm off to spend the afternoon with my best friend who smokes and is very very rightous about it!

Haven't told him yet I quit... wish me luck!

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  • Bubs - day five is really hard! You get over the euphoria of the first couple of days and start to realise that you're in it for the long haul, and then the fear hits.

    This is where the mental realignment starts. Read stuff, read about your quit, read other people's quitting blogs. You have to train your mind to think of yourself as a non-smoker. It's an ongoing thing, and you'll have good days and bad days. But you'll get there.

    Don't give in to the 'just one' thing, it's a slippery slope and you know it.

    h x

  • Your day 5 was my day 8. It was pretty simple till then. It hit me like a ton of bricks.

    Grit your teeth, go for a walk, knit till your fingers bleed (not really lol) just do whatever you can to distract yourself from it. I promise when you come through this bit you will be over the moon.

    It is hard but not impossible. YOU CAN DO IT !!!

    Sian

  • So I've made it to day 5! Yay!

    Except I don't feel so yay, The whole physical side effects thing wasn't so bad, and I had a real determination on the first few days.

    Last night I came home before hubby for the first time since I quit and I really struggled. This morning he's at work and I feel the same again!

    Its like I can't get them out of my head. All I keep thinking is "oh fag time...oh no don't do that anymore" over and over and over.

    I'm going out this afternoon, but I do often spend alot of time at home alone, and I really can't avoid it for long.

    I started kniting to distract myself, but that just makes me think " when i finish this row I'll have a fag..."

    I'm also starting to wonder if I really wanted to do this. I don't want to be a smoker, but I'm starting to wonmder if I want to be a non smoker either?

    I know that if I had a fag now I'd just feel sick and hate it, and I also know it wouldn't solve my curiousness (lost to that one before), so I know there's no reason to and I don't even really want to, I just want this voice to go away. I just want to forget that I could????

    Dunno if any of that makes any sense, but I do actually feel better for writing it, so I guess thats the point!

    Just confused as to why its getting harder not easier, and now I'm off to spend the afternoon with my best friend who smokes and is very very rightous about it!

    Haven't told him yet I quit... wish me luck!

    God that is exactly how i felt yesterday and this afternoon. I was feeling total crap last night but shared a bottle of wine with the missus and watched a funny dvd together and then a early night. :o

    Woke up this morning feeling quite good and took my little girl to her dancing lesson. This is the first time i have taken her since my quit and i usually drop her off and have a smoke with the other dads outside. I found it a little strange sitting there with a few women while all my mates where outside having a smoke but they all did congratulate me for giving it up. Oh and my oh my they all smelt awfull when they came back in of fags yuk!!!.

    This afternoon it has been constant in my mind and i feel like there is someone constantly telling me to have a fag, i overcome this by going to bed for a hour and then having a long soak in the bath, hey i even nicked one of my girlfriends face masks and put it on while i was relaxing in the bath LOL. It made me feel better. Anyway i am out tonight at a chinese restaurant with friends and at least not one of them smokes so i should be ok.

    Hope everyone else is battling through!!!

  • Its like I can't get them out of my head. All I keep thinking is "oh fag time...oh no don't do that anymore" over and over and over.

    I know this feeling. I've been consumed with envy for smokers today and feeling a bit down and like I won't enjoy life anymore. It seems stupid but I really did used to enjoy it. Despite knowing this I am telling myself I'd rather not be a smoker and it will be worth it in the future....even though this seems a long way off.

    Urghhhh. Stay strong everyone...in a few months all will be clearer :) xx

  • Thanks for all your engouragement guys. Feeling better now I've been distracted for a few hours, but I'm becoming a bit scared of being alone. I guess it just takes practice.

    Going for my first couple of drinks now, so have a good night everyone!

  • i was scared of being on my own for the first few days up until about 2 weeks i was dropping in on friends i hadnt seen for ages, or just going up the supermarket and wandering around the clothes department or home department for an hour or two just so i was around people it does pass honestly i never thought it would but it did

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