Well... I did it!
Booked my appointment with my Nurse, that is.
It's not the first time but hopefully it's the last. It's gotta be! Fed up of the highs and lows - not just when I try to quit but even when I'm having a cigarette. Saying to myself 'why am I doing this? It could be the death of me & I've got a family now!' yet somehow I convince myself 'I'll just finish this packet & I'll quit then' but I never stick to it. It never seems to be the right time for one reason or another. The first sign of stress and I'm in the garden lighting up. It's got to stop, it's killing me - literally (perhaps).
I've tried quitting so many times.
The first when I fell pregnant but as soon as she was born I started up again. I never smoke in the house or around her (she's 2 now) but it scares me that she's more aware of what I'm doing when I'm sneaking off for a crafty fag. I don't want her to be like I was with my parents who smoked when I was a kid. 'Daddy you stink!' was the main one I used and wouldn't wana give him a hug. Look at me now! Karma I say - wana quit when she's young, hopefully she won't remember.
The most recent time I quit was when I was diagnosed with pre-cancerous cells after a smear. Scared the hell outta me but after getting the all clear I'm back to stage one again, which is what brings me here.....
I can see a pattern now. Each time I've tried to quit in the past, it's been a sudden decision. Although aware of the risks of smoking, I never had the time to prepare myself for what's to come.
I came across this forum today and found it really inspiring. I pray that with the support of you guys, quitting will be that little bit easier.
I currently smoke 5-8 a day so before going to the clinic in 2 weeks (earliest appointment), I'm going to cut down a bit before discussing possible NRT and definate quit date.
No doubt, I'll still get cravings just doing that so it's likely I'll be back before then. Sorry for dragging on - excuse the pun! :rolleyes: It's been very theraputic writing what must feel like my life story x