Good morning everyone,
Just wanted to let you all know how things are going so far. This is day 22 for me so over the 3 week mark but im not leaving this section until the 23rd Nov because i feel that i cant join the Month 1 until i have completed a month which in my books is either 30/31days. Anyhow that day will soon come round as its only next Tuesday and then i can move from the Weeks to the Months which will feel kind of weird to start with.
I have also made a weekly chart at home that i can now mark of daily with a Gold Star, i know that sounds like a Kids Reward Chart but in a way it is my Reward Chart, its to make sure that i have a visual "Well Done" each day.
I cant say that i dont very occasionally think of my old friend because if i said that i would be lyin but those thoughts are not thoughts as such but the occasional "am i missing something" which then just goes as quick as it came.
Im looking outside at the moment and thinking that just over 3 weeks ago i would have been sat out there, needing my early morning puff and freezing my bum off so that i could get my fix but now i can stay in the warmth and noy have to take myself out like a naughty school girl and it feels great, im so proud of myself.
This is about the time back in 2006 that i was about to falter, i became a secret smoker back then because i did not want to admit to my OH that i had gone back onto them and yet he managed to stay quit. I am always on the look out to make sure that i dont give in. It helps for me that my house is smoke free and that no one else smokes here anymore so that for me is half the battle as i am not seeing or smelling it because i think if i did then i would need to be even stronger than i am being now.
I am also glad that this time around and because we dont go out very often that smoking has been banned in pubs, clubs, restaurants etc as i think that should have been done years ago. It also annoys me that people still smoke in there cars and esp when there are children in there and yet those kids cant escape. I have always said that i am the one addicted not anyone else so why do i have to subject others to my addiction.
Anyhow, thats my rant and rave for the day. BAN SMOKING in ALL CARS and IN HOMES WHERE THERE ARE KIDS! PS
Im not having a go at anyone this is my thoughts only and each to their own. Its just these are more of the reasons i wanted to stop because i i did not like subjecting others to my 2nd hand smoke. So to all my family and friends who have never smoked...i am sorry if i have done that in front of you and never thought properly about your feelings.