Close to cracking!!

HELP!!!!

I'm on day 16 (technically day 17 now as my quit started at 6pm) and my every fibre has been screaming out for a ciggie all day!! :eek:. I feel very tense and my shins ache. I don't know why it's hit me today as I've been fairly steady for the past two weeks. I'm taking deep breaths like there's no tomorrow but I'm still struggling. I'm not going to let this beat me, but I've lost a lot of faith in the 3-minute cravings!!

Ed (Going slightly off his head!!) xx

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  • NOOOOOOO Captain NOOOOOO :mad:

    Right was that loud enough? Nasty Nic's rearing his head and begging you to take him back - please don't do it - I've been where you are MANY times and have posted here first which is a good thing.......

    You don't want to undo everything you've done so far.....Nic's clinging on for dear life - shake him off you don't need him - come on Cap'n you can do this I promise!:D ;)

    Jane x

  • Hi Ed

    Stick with it, dont let the cravings take you in as you are better than that and you have done so well to let that all go out of the window now.

    Keep with the deep breaths and keep posting on here. Do you have anything you can do like maybe a walk, some painting or maybe have a bath anything that takes your mind off of it. The cravings will get easier but you have to be strong, remember your my inspiration and im here for you.

    Take care, just dont let the Nicodemon get to you they are not worth it.

    LOL

  • Where are you Ed?? I see you've gone off line - hopefully just for a break not to the shops!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Stay with us me dear - we can help you through this

  • Thank you Jane and Jo xxxxxxxxx.

    I needed to hear reinforcement from someone else. I really don't want to go back to day 1 again but it would be so, so easy!! I can't and won't let it happen!!! I've fought too hard to get this far!!

    Thank you again :).

    I hope your quits are going well.

    Ed xx

  • Where are you Ed?? I see you've gone off line - hopefully just for a break not to the shops!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Stay with us me dear - we can help you through this

    Sorry Jane. I had 'Invisible Mode' on. Force of habit on forums. I've disabled it now :)

    xx

  • Honestly (tuts loudly) Although I didn't even know you could do that!!!!

    Seriously though if you have a spare hour :eek: look back through some of my pleas for help and you will see you're not alone, we've all been there - we're all addicts at the end of the day and won't get over it in a short space of time - I had some bad news about our roof earlier and what was the 1st thing that popped in? You guessed it! How's that gonna help when looks like we need to shell out over a grand :confused::mad:

    Keep going you're doing fantastically well - honestly - even if you don't feel it yourself right now you are!

    Jane x

  • I have had a horrendous day for cravings today but I am still not going to smoke. And I have never bought the 3 mins craving as whoever said that has never smoked!! Just get to bed time (make that now if it will help) and tomorrow will be better.

    One minute, one hour , one day at a time.

    Stay strong.

    S xx

  • Argh Levs you too - just checked out both your dates - Cap'n is in wk 3 and you're just on the verge....there you go then you're both in your terrible 3's........

    Jane x

  • Honestly (tuts loudly) Although I didn't even know you could do that!!!!

    Seriously though if you have a spare hour :eek: look back through some of my pleas for help and you will see you're not alone, we've all been there - we're all addicts at the end of the day and won't get over it in a short space of time - I had some bad news about our roof earlier and what was the 1st thing that popped in? You guessed it! How's that gonna help when looks like we need to shell out over a grand.

    Keep going you're doing fantastically well - honestly - even if you don't feel it yourself right now you are!

    Jane x

    I sometimes get a bit paranoid on some forums :o. I'm amongst friends here though :).

    Sorry to hear about your roof Jane. Of course having a cig won't fix it, and it'll mean less money available to get it fixed. Logical when you think about it for a millisecond but the old nicotine does like to distort the facts!!

    I have had a horrendous day for cravings today but I am still not going to smoke. And I have never bought the 3 mins craving as whoever said that has never smoked!! Just get to bed time (make that now if it will help) and tomorrow will be better.

    One minute, one hour , one day at a time.

    Stay strong.

    S xx

    I'm sure I'll make it to bed time Sian. It's only about an hour away if I opt for an early night - and I've had a lot of those since my quit :p.

    I think I just needed to rant a bit and I'm feeling a bit more in control now.

    Thank you again everyone. You're a great bunch on this forum!! xxx

  • In Response to hope this time

    Yeah, i'm not close to cracking though. I dont care how bad the cravings get. smoking might get rid of it temporarily but it will just come back again. Staying quit, yeah I might still get cravings every now and then but I know given time they will go away (mostly) forever but if I smoke i'll get one every hour forever.

    S xx

  • In Response to hope this time

    Yeah, i'm not close to cracking though. I dont care how bad the cravings get. smoking might get rid of it temporarily but it will just come back again. Staying quit, yeah I might still get cravings every now and then but I know given time they will go away (mostly) forever but if I smoke i'll get one every hour forever.

    S xx

    And there you go, you talk a lot of sense you know - even to me who's a bit further on than you!

    xxx

  • Ed,

    I just wanted to add that your not alone mate, we are all here and as i have said all in the same boat. I find it hard even now but i have my knitting to do but next week im on my own again and thats when if im totally honest im dreading as if i dont keep up with my knitting i will get the cravings and i dont want them. I know its part parcel of giving up and take heed that your better than that addiction and can ride through this.

    Keep smiling and most of all stay strong, dont give in you have come so far and you should feel extremely proud of yourself. ;)

    LOL

  • Hey Captain - you are of course right about the roof - small fry in comparrison to what we're going through but a bl@@dy annoyance that I don't need so close to Xmas - still these things are sent to try us and it's about the 10th DIY disaster thats happened since I quit so I'm kind of getting used to them LOL :rolleyes:

    xx

  • Argh Levs you too - just checked out both your dates - Cap'n is in wk 3 and you're just on the verge....there you go then you're both in your terrible 3's........

    Jane x

    Oops. Missed your post Jane.

    I've heard about the terrible threes and never really paid much attention to them. Maybe there's something in it, although I don't recall my day 3 being particularly bad.

    One day at a time and they soon mount up!!

    xx

  • I really don't want to go back to day 1 again but it would be so, so easy!! I can't and won't let it happen!!! I've fought too hard to get this far!!

    Yes you have!!! I have not finished reading all the replies and so i am hoping that you have over come this xx

    I quit back in March and used this forum! It is so lovely to see most the March quitters still going strong and i know that i should be one of them :( To think now i could be on 7 months smoke free, but oh no i let that stupid horrible nico demon get the best of me and so now feel totally gutted!!

    I dont want that feeling to happen again, i want us all to stay together and then in 7 months down the road we can see WE DID IT... yes it was hard but we did it!!!

    Day one is done and dusted Ed, you dont need to go back there, you are much stronger than that.

    xx

  • Yes you have!!! I have not finished reading all the replies and so i am hoping that you have over come this xx

    I quit back in March and used this forum! It is so lovely to see most the March quitters still going strong and i know that i should be one of them :( To think now i could be on 7 months smoke free, but oh no i let that stupid horrible nico demon get the best of me and so now feel totally gutted!!

    I dont want that feeling to happen again, i want us all to stay together and then in 7 months down the road we can see WE DID IT... yes it was hard but we did it!!!

    Day one is done and dusted Ed, you dont need to go back there, you are much stronger than that.

    xx

    Thanks Snowy :).

    I'm feeling better now. I think the constant gnawing away all day just got to me. It was uncomfortable, but I didn't die despite what the nicodemon was trying to tell me :p. I came through the other side hopefully stronger for the experience. Hoping for a better day tomorrow though.

    That must be a bit weird for you seeing your March contemporaries still going. It doesn't really matter if you slide as long as you get there in the end though. *This* is the one for you Snowy. I just know it!! :cool:. I have high hopes for all the Oct '10 Quitters.

    Ed xx

  • Captain crunch.

    Please don't fall we are reliying on you.

    I know you can do it,times I have felt like this going to drive me mad just hang on there go to bed.

    Take care.

    terri

  • I quit back in March and used this forum! It is so lovely to see most the March quitters still going strong and i know that i should be one of them :( To think now i could be on 7 months smoke free, but oh no i let that stupid horrible nico demon get the best of me and so now feel totally gutted!!

    I was here 2 years ago. I quit on 14th Sept 08 and started again 14th Nov 08 and I have seen people who were quiting at the same time and they are still stopped. It is gutting but I wasn't in the right place then to stop. I still believed I was being deprived of something it was my right to have. Now I know i'm not being deprived of anything.

    Don't worry about past quits just learn from them, you can't change the past, all you can change is your future.

  • Thanks Snowy :).

    I'm feeling better now. I think the constant gnawing away all day just got to me. It was uncomfortable, but I didn't die despite what the nicodemon was trying to tell me :p. I came through the other side hopefully stronger for the experience. Hoping for a better day tomorrow though.

    That must be a bit weird for you seeing your March contemporaries still going. It doesn't really matter if you slide as long as you get there in the end though. *This* is the one for you Snowy. I just know it!! :cool:. I have high hopes for all the Oct '10 Quitters.

    Ed xx

    Brilliant Ed, so glad you are feeling better now ... it just creeps up on us all of a sudden doesn't it! I know i had my wobbly last night and i know there are more to come.... but this time i am ready for the little bugger ( can i call him that? )

    Thank you for having faith in me, that has given me a real boost.

    xxxxxxxxxxx

  • I was here 2 years ago. I quit on 14th Sept 08 and started again 14th Nov 08 and I have seen people who were quiting at the same time and they are still stopped. It is gutting but I wasn't in the right place then to stop. I still believed I was being deprived of something it was my right to have. Now I know i'm not being deprived of anything.

    Don't worry about past quits just learn from them, you can't change the past, all you can change is your future.

    Cheers Sian,

    So true words hun xx

  • Night Guys and Gals,

    Tomorrow will be better for all if us. We can all do this and its great that we have each other. Thank you everyone as i feel my family has extended now and without you all and the support you give to not only me but others as well has been the icing on the cake, Thank you :)

    Till tomorrow then and another day to cross off my calender.

    lol

  • I've been there with you on those 3 hour long craves (with about 10 minutes respite in between!). I've been quit a little over 6 weeks but the past few days have been hell!

    Fortunately they seemed to abate at about 7pm tonight.... and I'm left with an immaculately clean house and all the washing and ironing done...!

    Sitting here chilling with a glass of wine & praying that tomorrow will be a better day.... I've run out of jobs to do!

    Here's to a better day tomorrow for us all...! bestsmileys.com/drinking/10...

  • OMG Captain I was PMd saying you was in need of help. Rushed over here and I can see you are just fine and that other great people were around to offer support - see I told you there would always be someone around to help. Will you not do that again I actually got a sweat on rushing over here!

    Well done for pulling through I knew you wouldn't let the nicodemon beat you. Proud of you

    Keep strong

    Tinks xx

    P.S Thank you Jane hun xx

  • Hey Tinks, no probs he's been well looked after by the looks of it xxxx

  • Hi Ed,

    i am SO sorry i missed this earlier!!!

    How you doing now? Its a hard slog aint it! but we WILL get there!!! Hang tough!

  • Hope this finds you renewed in strength this morning...

    Hang in there Ed, you are so far down the road now. It is still rocky and will be for a while yet but it is so so so worth it believe me.

    Keep smiling Hun xx

  • Thank you to everyone who came to my rescue in my hour of need yesterday :). Your support and encouragement helped me more than you'll ever know.

    I rode the storm, I'm still 'clean', and I'm feeling stronger today. That was by far and away my worst day to date and I hope I don't have too many like it.

    No matter how hard it gets, don't give in!! Read and post here and someone will be around to offer support. I really can't stress that too strongly. I almost certainly would have caved had it not been for the wonderful people here.

    I love you all ♥♥♥♥ :), and I wish you all good luck and strength in your quits.

    Ed xx

  • Hi Ed,

    I missed this too, so sorry! I was having a tough day yesterday too and am glad to be over it :) The monster is really being tough with me today... I don't think terrible 3s apply to me, I remember days 5 and 10 being a living hell and now week 7 is just horrible!

    Isn't this forum lovely? I just read read and read (then called up my mum and had a pity-party and cried a lot) and I made it through yesterday!

    Glad to see you feeling so confident today, I was suprised to see you struggling (although everyone does at some point!) because you're always so positive and happy with your decision to stop - next time you're having a bad day you should read over your 'happy' posts :)

    Jane - how annoying about your roof! Well done on not reaching for one

    xx

  • Hi Sofia, sorry to hear you're having a tough week 7. You already know to read here and seek support from wherever you can :). The important thing is not to smoke. It solves nothing!!!

    Hang in there Sofia. We're here for you if you need to rant. We understand and will support you :).

    I'm back to feeling more positive now :). If anything, yesterday has made me even more determined!!

    Jane - I echo Sofia's comment on you not having one with your roof problems. Stay strong!!

    Ed xx

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