My name is Dave and I’m new on here, I’m currently quitting and I’m on day four.
I’m 27 years old and I have smoked on and off since I was 21, started doing it here and there when I was with friends and it was on and off for a long time, but in that time I went a year and a half without smoking, then I started again, again when stood around with friends.
I became a proper smoker around summer of 2007, on between 15-20 a day. As that was a hard year for me. My first quit attempt was then new year 09, I used patches and went through the full 12 week program, 8 weeks 15 mg, 2 weeks 10mg, 2 weeks 5 mg, then three days after coming off them, I light up. Very stupid. This was one of the first tell tale signs that I don’t care how I get the nicotine, I just need the nicotine.
So was smoking again around 10 a day till I tried to quit again July 09, this time I tried to use the nicotine nasal spray, and that worked a little too well. Would use about a bottle of that in 4-5 days at £20 a time. That kept my off smoking till around December 09. My girlfriend became pregnant in October 09, this and other stresses is what caused me to start again. But as my girlfriend wasn’t smoking, I wasn’t smoking around her, I was using the nasal spray throughout the day so I didn’t smell of it, then smoking when I left her on a night. Very stupid.
I managed to stop and get off the spray completely around March this year. My daughter was born in June. As the first line of this points out though, I started again 2 months ago, again mixing between cigs and the nasal spray. I hate the fact that I have always been so dependent on Nicotine and sometimes I don’t feel right at all without it. I know the only way to get free of this is to go cold turkey and if I can get to 6 months with no nicotine (that includes NRT and Cigs) I will be very happy. Nicotine itself still speeds up metabolism and heart rate and as I want to put a bit of weight on too, I need to get off it completely.
I smoked when I went out on Friday night but I am happy to say that I have gone completely cold turkey since then and the last three days were very hard. I’m on day 4 now and I am so determined not to put any nicotine in my body and with will power and I hope with your help I will succeed.