Day 18 - I gave in!

[nsd_user663_14155]

I had been doing so well but today just got too much. I strugged since I woke up. Felt really depressed, couldn't stop crying for no good reason at all. A friend then called round and I ended up smoking. Only had one but really annoyed with myself. Have I undone all the good work?

[nsd_user663_5971]

No - it's a blip. Remember how annoyed with yourself you felt and get on with your quit - stronger and more determined. So many of us have had blips but we haven't quit our quits. be proud of your 18 days, 3 more and it's 3 weeks!! Well done you

[nsd_user663_14155]

I wish I could get that determind feeling back but I am soooo close to just going to shop and buying some. I just can't find the resolve again. help!!!!

[nsd_user663_14155]

Just listened to Paul Mckenna again and feel a bit calmer.

I just realised this is what I always do. I give up then cave in with a friend and then start smmoking 20 a day again. So I've got to stop.

Why is it I feel I have to smoke when I'm with friends? I don't think its just that the temptation is there. I think its about feeling involved, like your sharing a common interest. Almost feel that people will like me less if I don't smoke with them. Thats got to be the nicotine talking surely!

Also why I don't allow myself a slip up. So what I had one. It dosn't mean I have to keep having one every hour for the rest of my life! Plus it really didn't make me feel any better. It actually has made me feel a lot worse. One just leads to wanting another, and another and another...where does it end?

So this time has got to be different...I've got to stay strong

[nsd_user663_14114]

Hi Tray

how are you doing now?

Yes, its the nicodemon telling you that your friends will like you less. They are your FRIENDS, they wont care that you dont smoke.

Keep strong!

[nsd_user663_14155]

Hi Claire

I'm doing ok thank you. Its been such a tough couple of days. I just keep waivering but everytime I feel like giving in I read a few different posts, and it helps.

[nsd_user663_4121]

Just listened to Paul Mckenna again and feel a bit calmer.

I just realised this is what I always do. I give up then cave in with a friend and then start smmoking 20 a day again. So I've got to stop.

Why is it I feel I have to smoke when I'm with friends? I don't think its just that the temptation is there. I think its about feeling involved, like your sharing a common interest. Almost feel that people will like me less if I don't smoke with them. Thats got to be the nicotine talking surely!

Also why I don't allow myself a slip up. So what I had one. It dosn't mean I have to keep having one every hour for the rest of my life! Plus it really didn't make me feel any better. It actually has made me feel a lot worse. One just leads to wanting another, and another and another...where does it end?

So this time has got to be different...I've got to stay strong

Stay strong, Tray, and push through these hard times, in time your quit will become ridiculously easy and tremendously enjoyable.... you can't see this yet but if you keep moving forward it WILL happen. I bliped my second week as well, had two fags and I do think it made my first month a bit tougher but I got through it...... some talk about the terrible three's being really challenging (day 3, week 3, and month 3) and you're right in week 3 so that's why it may seem extra tough right now. Keep posting, read tons, and support others.... for many this was the magic formula that got them through this addiction. Good luck!

[nsd_user663_14155]

Guys, thank you for your support. The last two days were so tough. Really thought I was going to go back to my old discusting habit but with the help of this forum I didn't!

I have just had a lovely day out with my neice. I didn't worry about smoking all day. In fact as I looked around I saw people pushing buggies and smoking and it just looked so wrong. I am so glad that is not me any more.

Very proud of myself today