Im on Day 4 and its 6.31am, yesterday evening was HARD, just wanted to give in to a couple of different compulsions, but instead just ate a few too many chips and got an early night. I think I am seeing a friend who smokes today, that will come with its own challenges as when I have given up smoking in the past it has always been with her that I fall off the wagon, but I am so determined to keep stopped this time that I dont think, even in the face of major temptation, I will crack.
can feel major crankiness and tearfulness setting in and dont have the sticking power that I am used to (not very good concentration and stamina at the best of times... this is just ridiculous!) but at least have this place to say how I feel while its happening.
just keep reminding myself why I am doing this....
For my health- I have had blood clots, pulminary and DVT in my leg- the clot was from my groin to my ankle in size, these are hereditory but can be triggered by smoking. also my uncle had a heart attack on monday morning and the only reason they could find was his smoking and stress. I cant do anything about the stress in my life, but I can take away the smoking!
for my bank balance- I really want a car and need to save up enough money to buy oneaccording to the quitting calculator I could be looking at £75 every 10 days so around £2700 in a year :eek: which is a respectable amount for a first car. (so like in the last 10 years I have managed to smoke an estimated £27,000 worth of cigarettes :eek::eek::eek:
socially- I don't want me or my clothes to stink like an ashtray any more, a friend who smokes ket me have a swig of her water and after just three days of not smoking, it tasted and smelled like fags around the neck of the bottle, cos she had just been for a smoke then had a drink. I probably didnt notice it before but even after a short time, i realise how obnoxious stale smoke is.
